Thursday, February 02, 2006

Giving myself credit...

I tend to be fairly self-critical, I try not to be self-critical in a "Oh, I'm so useless" kind of way, but I try to be very honest with myself about my own challenges and shortcomings. Sometimes I think I weigh my challenges too much in relation to the stuff I do that I feel successful with... I've been thinking about this this past week...

As a parent, I think I'd say my biggest challenge is Gentle Discipline. I'm pretty open about this with friends and strangers. I smack and yell, far more than I would be comfortable seeing or hearing other parents do, and I try to work on this aspect of my parenting every day, but I think I may be focused too hard on trying NOT to do those things, rather than trying TO do other things, and I think I undervalue the times when I really deal with stressful situations very well. I don't like to acknowledge when I've done something well in this area because I feel like it should be the normal and acknowledging it is the same as saying, "Wow, look what I did, I don't usually do that! Aren't I good!" - On reflection, if I acknowledge the good, and give myself a pat on the back, I would encourage myself to do more good because it feels good to feel good about yourself (does that make sense?)...

Afterall, I do parent three boys, at home, all day, nearly every day, mostly on my own... Dave is there four days of the week, but I still do the lion share of the active parenting (he likes to pop on DVDs as a parenting style, LOL)...

I think I've very often a fair parent, I think mostly my expectations of my kind are reasonable, certainly I ask myself how reasonable they are all the time. I certainly have times when I'm not reasonable, and when I'm not fair, but considering how I was parented, I've come a long, long way...

I can be a very fun parent (I got that from my mum), and very encouraging! I can be very, very patient too, especially with my children in their first year!!!

I definitely need to acknowledge the GOOD work I do as a parent a helluva lot more!

Thanks to everyone who sent Bryn their best wishes. I'm not sure what the story is with him, he was hot all of yesterday, but didn't throw up any more. He fed all night again, and projectile vomited again this morning, is still hot, but seems in good spirits, so who knows...

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