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A sinking feeling...

Got to get this out there, can't talk to Dave about it...

Today, the ILs were supposed to come and visit. The boys and I haven't seen them since very early January, so they haven't seen Bryn for more than half his life. The reason being that FIL has been sick almost constantly since late February with colds and what not. So, anyway, it was decided yesterday that they would come over this afternoon to drop off their fire screen for us to borrow for Bryn and also to see the kids for the first time in ages.

We just got a call an hour ago, MIL saying they won't be coming because FIL had his worst night yet last night with wheezing and coughing and she just doesn't want to take him out in this cold weather. I totally understand this.

It has left me with a sinking feeling though. FIL was diagnosed with brochitis last week, and basically that was caused by fluid collecting around his heart and in his lungs. The fluid seemed to be some sort of aftereffect of the bowel cancer and the treatment for that (he is currently still in remission). So, basically one illness is now leading to another and another. Today I just got this feeling that this is how it is going to be now, that he will never really get better. It will basically only be a matter of managing his ill health from now on.

I'm really sad by this, for Dave, but also for the boys, because I have a feeling they won't be seeing too much more of Pa. I don't want to sound dramatic, but I find myself hoping he holds out until Summer and then get well enough to see a bit more of them. I want Bryn to have a chance to get to know him.

Anyway, just had to get it out...

Comments

Juniper said…
So sorry your FIL hasn't been well. I know what you mean, it is a shame the kids can't spend as much time with them as you would like (or as *they* would like probably).

*hugs*
katef said…
Sending my positive vibes for your FIL... I found it really really hard to accept that my girls would never really have any memories of their grampy (aside from those we create for them) and I hate myself for not making sure we have photos of the girls with him. We have one from when they were still in hospital but after that he was never well enough and strong enough to be able to hold them.... but still.. it really is something I really regret.
I don't want to sound all doom and gloom but even if you have the slightest doubt.. make as much time as you can to be with him, even if only on the phone and take some photos when you can....

And on a brighter note (may as well keep rambling this is already a record comment!) can not WAIT to see the hats, am so so sooooooooo excited! Still haven't remember to ask Leah for the DD details but would it be better to give the money to Laura if I see her on Tuesday??
anastasia_wolf said…
I understand your sinking feelings, I'd be feeling the same. :( Hope he does get better in summer and the boys get to spend heaps of time with him.
Sif said…
Yeah, sending the money with Laura should be fine, assuming she is coming to Beck's on Wednesday of course :) - in fact, it would probably be easier all round :)

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