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More navelgazing...

To all you readers who so faithfully post comments, thank you for all your support and advice, it all gets read and appreciated, even if I don't answer!!!

Sorry for another self-indulgent post (hey, where else can you be self-indulgent if not on your own blog)...

How womens bodies betray us...

Having experienced my second period since Bryn's birth (and can I just say I LOVE my mooncup!!!), I've experienced some new and showing things in my own body. I know menstruation is a priveledge it is the sign we are (mostly) fertile, and it's the reason we can conceive those precious babies we adore, but I've never really been comfortable in the prociess myself. I got my first period when I was 13, I was lucky, my mum got her first at 9 or 10 I believe. For me menstruating was quick painful, but for her it was excruiating, I believe she had undiagnosed, oh shit, can't remember the name now, but the symptoms are excessive, prolonged bleeding and pain - she bled three weeks out of four and was bed-ridden for at least 9 days in even month... Mum ended up with a hysterectomy at 36.

In comparison, I've been very lucky. As I said, I had a lot of pain, but nothing like that, until I had Erik, then between Erik and Luey I had virtually painfree, extremely regular periods, which returned again when Luey was 19 months. Now though, and I know this isn't necessarily how it will continue, I've had two periods two months apart, and while I've felt the heaviness I felt before, this time I REALLY noticed bloating. I've never noticed it before, but it was really obvious this time. I think posibly because I'm not as overweight as I have been before (though I didn't notice it in May, and I've only lost a couple of kilos since then...

Also, the mood swings, I had noticed these were getting worse before conceiving Bryn, but MY GODS, this time around I went from perfectly fine to massively depressed and irretable overnight. I've NEVER lost my temper with my babies, but I yelled at Bryn. And as an example, last night was about the same as the other night when I lost my cool with him, and it didn't occur to me to yell at him, I didn't even feel inclined...

So, I'll be taking EPO and Magnesium, I'll be making sure to avoid caffeine and alcohol the week before I'd expect to be due next time (I think those drinks at Jayne's birthday two days earlier didn't help)...

Astrological navelgazing...

Got one of my books from Amazon this week, called Spiritual Astrology, it goes through the planets in the signs in the houses (so you find out, for example, which sign Mercury was under in which house at the time of your birth and those combinations will give you an idea of what life lesson you will be dealing with in that area of your life...

So, for example, for me, my Sun was in Saggitarius, in my first house (which is why I was born a Saggitarian), and so I tend to believe about myself (Sun, in the first house), that I am intellectually superior to other people (Sags tend to think that of themselves), and because I believe that I also tend to want others to see that about me (that's what the first house is about, what you want others to believe about you)... LOL - think of all the Sags you know (and one or two of you are Sags, LOL)... Now you don't have to be ego-manical about it, and some Sags aren't, some have learned the lessen of taking ideas from others, and being open to other p.o.vs - and you, or the other Sags you know, may be of that variety, but if you're not, you'll recognise yourself as persisting till other agree with you (because, afterall, all you're trying to do is teach them all your knowledge, they can't help it if they can't see the trees for the forrest)...

I have been reading lots about myself, other planets under other signs in other houses, and in lots of places I can see I'm well into learning the lessons this life has set out for me (btw, the accuracy of these finding have been phenomonal, so if it seems like I'm swallowing this hook, line and sinker, I'm not, it's just that I am seeing myself in everything I read about my chart)... In this area though, I felt the heat rising in my face... As many of you have witnessed on various boards that I've been a member of, I'm like a dog with a bone on issues where I have an (edumacated) opinion that others don't see the genius in. I always try to be polite about it, but I have such a big ego issue with people not seeing "The World According to Sif"...

Now, this doesn't mean I'm wrong (hehehehe), just that I can stand to take in what others are saying a bit more, and at least reflect on it, and listen more, and maybe I'll find genius in opposing opinions to my own. I mean, just because I'm intelligent and reflective, doesn't mean that others aren't, and just because they opinion is very different to my own, doesn't mean it's wrong. Yes, I have a long way to go in this area of my self-development, but at least it's good to have some idea of where I'm headed!

Enough navelgazing...

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