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Getting Counselling...

This has been coming for a looooong time, but it's time to step and take responsibility for my anger issues. Got the name and number of a good counsellor the other day, one who doesn't seem to have issues with attachment parenting practices. Gave her a call and unfortunately she is totally booked out for a while to come. She recommended a colleague though, who works in an adjoining office, who she said would also be open to various parenting practices.

My issue with finding an open counsellor is that I don't want someone who is going to assume my anger stems directly from the pressures I put on myself with cosleeping, extended breastfeeding and homeschooling. I'm sure, with my anger remaining unresolved, these practices probably contribute to the stress I feel, but i don't believe they are the cause of my rage.

My evidence for this is that I feel far less rage towards Luey and Bryn than I do towards Erik, and Erik was my baby who slept apart, sleep really well (e…

Feeding the masses...

Well, I've convinced Dave we NEED a dining table setting for 8 (master plan in action here ;))... This is how I put it to him... His parents are getting older (aren't we all), but to the degree that they're really not up to hosting Christmas dinner anymore... Was a struggle two years ago, last year Dave went over there are 9am to help his mum start lunch, and lunch was still delayed a bit... So, the time is rolling around that we will need to take on that responsiibility - not that I'm looking for to it or anything, having our cooking compared to his mother, oy vey!!!

Soooo, ok, if we got a six seater table, we could seat Dave's parents, and us, and the two bigger boys, but not Bryn - and while he is still high chair bound this year, next year he'll likely be in the booster seat ruining my best (read ONLY) table cloth!

And then there's my brother (OMG, my family and Dave's are like oil and water, they just don't mix...), he's likely to be spen…

procrastinating, procarasting - so, let's do a list...

Ok, it's nearly 3.30pm, so Dave will be home in 3 hours time (more or less). I want to clean up the place so he doesn't have to spend tomorrow cleaning up while I'm off at playgroup with Bryn... He tends to waste his days off pottering around the house, doing dishes mainly (this guy can make doing the dishes an all-day-event, argh!0...

So, I thought I'd get a few things done before he got home, as a surprise... Here's what I want to get done...

Tidy the dining, lounge and hall, including sweeping the floors, sorting out the nappy stand, and tidying Bryn's toys.Fold all the washing and put the nappies togethertidy the bathroom and my roomGet boys to sort their room (thankfully not a big job as we've been keeping this up every day this week)Do the dishesCook dinner.Dust (this will only happen if everything else gets done)...Ok, just finishing my tea here, and then I'm off to get this done...
If you could build a house anywhere, where would it be?
Just one??? Oooh, that's too hard... Um, gosh, I dunno, Maybe one of those luxury apartments on Glenelg beach? That way I'd have mum and s-dad nearby, which would be great for all of us. I'd be near the beach, be near the city... And I really like Adelaide. It would be hard to be away fom my friends though... I don't know really, is there such a thing as a perfect place for me?

What’s your favorite article of clothing?
Um, now usually I'd say my red velvet long coat - it's a true replica of a 1920s design, and gorgeous, but unfortunately it's now on the big side on me and not so flattering anymore... I have a new black dragon tshirt I really like though...

Favorite physical feature of the opposite sex?
Yeah, I'm an eys person... But for me, it's not physical really, it's the mind, always the mind... He could be perty perty, but if he didn't have a quick mind, I'd be totally put…

The rest of my life...

My last few posts have been a bit preoccupied (thank you to everyone who commented, all your comments helped me through more than you can imagine)... So, I thought it was time to post about something else...

The Various Faces of Bryn









Knitting projects... The snake one has already sold as a second because I wasn't happy with the stitching on the bum. The other two are currently on auction and are sold (as in already bid on) but the auction isn't finished yet, so the final price is not yet set... I was really happy with the apple which I just made up as I went along - I never work from a pattern, either in the pants themselves or the embellishments, so anyone with two or more of my longies will find no two are exactly the same, LOL, and the flowers, which were oh so simple but very effective, I think...

Am currently working on another pair (will finish kniting them tonight, and will embellish them tomorrow and Monday/Tuesday - haven't decided what yet... The colours are go…

One more positive...

Was reading the site of the school I mentioned in the previous post and it says...

The school motto "creativity and endeavour" is reflected in all aspects of the curriculum. In particular, the Visual and Performing Arts program, with its visual art, drama and dance components, encourages all children to develop confidence and self esteem. The strong emphasis on this area is a result of: the significant link to the historical heritage of the school location, the influence of the artists Tom Roberts and Frederick McCubbin whose names were selected to create the school name, the annual celebration of the 'Artists' Camp Fair', the commitment to the 'Artist in Residence Program', the provision of individual and group performances in the form of musicals, drama/dance festivals, concerts and soirees, availability of private instrumental tuition, the strong partnership with the National Gallery of Victoria and -------- art groups and the diverse range of art work …

Roberts McCubbin Primary School...

Ok, after a chat with Jayne, I've found out about a school that looks better than our closest local... It would mean a walk, two busess and another walk, but if it is a school that would better meet Erik's needs, it's worth it... And who knows, maybe Dave will even get off his proverbial and get a licence...

Thanks to all the supportive comments and a good nights sleep, I'm feeling a little better about this this morning... There isn't something embarrassing about meeting your child's need, and Erik, right now, needs this option, he needs to try this out...

Jayne, you can tell Jo that Sam had something to do with this too, Erik told me this morning that Sam had told him at Liam's birthday that school is fun, apparently that has been playing on his mind...

So, Erik might be the kind of child who enjoys school, just because I didn't doesn't mean he won't. And if he doesn't, we can still homeschool him, and then he'll at least have come to…

Erik wants to go to school...

I'm so upset, I wasn't even going to post this blog... I just want this to go away. I feel like I've completely failed him. He wants to go to school for two reasons (these are his reasons) a) he wants to make friends, and b) he wants his own locker... Ok, so I don't know what that second reason is about, but the first one is like a skewer through my heart... We've failed him. He feels isolated. This despite taking him to homeschooling group where he didn't make any friends because he hangs around the edges, and tries only to make friends through Luey (that is Luey makes friends and Erik moves in and monopolises them - he's so much like me :(...).

I'm so afraid for him. Even though this won't happen until the beginning of next year now because we want him to learn to read this summer first, I'm so afraid that once at school he'll be teased and/or bullied. I'm afraid he'll be ostracised like I was because he is so much like me …

The Wisdom of Star Trek - The Enemy Within...

Dave just recently bought the entire first series of Star Trek on DVD because they're digitally remodeling it for re-release atm, and he is thinking they'll simply phase out the original version...

Anyway, so we're lumbering through it in order of production, as I haven't seen many episodes of the original series myself... I say "lumbering" because even though I was, initially, rather jazzed at the prospect of finally seeing this show, as an adult, and seeing how it measured up to the rememberances of my Trekker parents, I've come to realise that it is heavily dusted in some form of soporific, LOLOLOLOL... I don't know what it is, but after watching an episode I usually head off to bed, yawning my head off!

Anyway, I had a late afternoon nap today, so Dave suggested we watch and episode seeing as I wasn't likely to fall asleep from it (I still ended up yawning, though)... It was a good episode though and timely (don't you love how the Univers…

Earthdance 2006

We took ourselves of to Earthdance 2006, at Collingwood Children's Farm... This was the 10th annual Earthdance, a globally linked up festival for world peace... We'd never been, so this was new experience, but I had heard it might be fun for the kids, and there'd be roaming perform artists about - which I thought Erik might really love! So, off we went...

Took a few photos, much happier with the lighting today, and managed to get a few I was happy with (mostly for catching form)...



Loved this one of Jayne's daughter dancing to the music!



Dave managed to catch a pic of me, I'm totally gobsmacked at how I'm aging, I just don't see myself this way, hahaha!



What an appropriate tshirt for the day, don't you think! I knew straight away this photo would be a fave of mine!



Erik mastered twirling the hoop on his arm today and was very proud of himself!




Don't you just love the shape that woman on the right has made with her body?! I'm so happy I caught it!


Photos from the Museum...

I have to say, I wasn't particularly happy with the photos taken from this day. It was a super bright day out, and many of the photos were washed out. Not to mention that I only got 24 photos in total anyway (and my hit rate isn't that high, LOLOLOLOL)... Have had a play with all of these to try and make something of them...








Having trouble with trust...

I'm having trouble trusting... Trusting myself, trusting other people... I don't know what's wrong, and I don't know where I stand. I was saying to a friend today that maybe this is normal for our age - maybe THIS is the midlife crisis (you know, considering that life expectancies used to be 70 years, not 80)... Maybe that's it...

I was saying to my friend that my problem is that I worry what people I like think... Not what they think of me (that doesn't worry me much, for some reason), I worry what they think I think of them...

I've been feeling so judgemental of late... That is, I've realised that the things I take for granted (ideas, concepts, ways of perceiving things), other people don't feel the same about, and no matter how I try to explain myself, they don't understand things the way I do.

I feel frustrated by this, like someone who has "seen the light" and wants to evangelise and have everyone experience the same epiphany..…

Our day out...

We went for a walk down to town today, and stopped on the way at the park for a play... Basically a chance for them to run off some energy, and me to do some photography - though even trying to get in frame was a challenge...

I haven't bothered to adjust any of these pics...

Popeye Erik...

Bryn enjoying the bouncy See-saw and sporting his new Buddha t-shirt, courtesy of the talent Leah!

Playing with the superball from Grandpa Lester and Amma Yja...

Erik, busting a move - that kid has natural form! He LOVES to "be on stage" and perform!

Luey doing a starjump for the camera!

He can do the flying fox without me holding his legs!!! Geez, he's growing up so fast!

The boys got new "real" light sabres today (each sword has three colour settings and three sound effects, they LOVE them, the batteries should be due for replace in about an hour...)!

Big boy flying the fox...

The boys got new sandals and new sun hats today too (big spending day, again)... Ended up getting th…

First Grounding...

Today was the first time in his entire life, that Bryn's feet touched the ground - his flesh on the soil of this Earth... Today he was 1 year and 3 weeks and 5 days old... The occassion of this first grounding was a visit from our friends Leah and Audrey, and the neccessity of Leah and I being present in our children's play outside ;)...

here are some pics from today - the slightly odd liike photo of Bryn grimacing at the camera was when I first realised he'd first touched ground, and it came out a bit blurry so I "fixed" it in photoshop...

Sweet Flower Girl

Grounding!

Flower food for dinosaurs

Truck Play

Beautiful beautiful boy!

The fun with Statcounter...

I installed statcounter a while back to track how many, and who, were visiting my blog, and it's been an interesting little while since, LOL... Today I saw that someone had visited me after checking out Technorati.com, where there had been posted a couple of small pieces on the demise of the Swinburne Student Union, and Andrew Landeryou's blog... Anyhoo, whoever it was, decided to check out my blog next - goodness only knows why... But whoever you are, there ain't nuffin' interesting to see here, so move right along, peoples (geez, some people can't let go, can they?)...

Smallpox???

Got a call from mum today (ah, geez, forgot to call her back, have to do that)...

When I discovered Bryn had chickenpox last Tuesday morning, I rang her to get her to let the family sitting in front of us at church the previous Sunday know about the chickenpox (they were a family of four gorgeous boys, one of whom Bryn had definitely made physical contact with)... Anyhoo, so today mum tells me, while choking back laughter, that she'd call the other mum, who she did not personally know, and introduced herself and said she was calling because her grandson had been discover to have SMALLPOX, and so she wanted to be sure this family had a heads up...

Apparently, there was a short silence on the other end of the phone, before the woman asked mum is she was absolutely sure it was smallpox, which mum confirmed she was sure it was, and the woman then asked if there was any chance she meant CHICKENPOX, which mum then had to admit, that probably was what she meant....

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

So, now …

Three colours BOY...

When I was pregnant with Bryn, I kept hoping he'd be a blonde. This was because Erik was a brunette and Luey was a red head, and so it seemed kind of a cool idea to have a blonde too...

When Bryn was born he had brown hair... It has lightened a bit to a light brown, but I'd hoped it would lighten more... I'd pretty much given up hope. Then visiting mum this weekend I was saying how I kept imagining it was getting lighter at the crown, and she said that was quite possible.


As it turns out, I was born with the same hair colour Bryn has, and a photo taken when I was 18 months showed it to be similar to his colour now, but by the time I was two it was very blonde and stayed that way for several years, as seen in these pics...

I'm attempted to take a photo of the lighter patch of hair that is just emerging on Bryn's head now... It's more to one side of his crown, which is odd, really, but it's hard to tell because his haie colour changes in different lights so…