Monday, October 02, 2006

Breathe in, breathe out, breathe in, breathe out...

Ok, I've just organised an appointment to see RM primary school in a weeks time (with family in tow)... The principal knows I have a 7 year old who has been homeschooled, that I'm interested in enrolling as well as a possible prep enrolment - if Luey likes what he sees...

And, I just left a message with the other counsellor who's name and number I was given of Friday, to try and arrange some counselling...

These feel like such HUMUNGOUS steps, I can hardly believe I'm doing this! I have to believe this is for the betterment of all our lives, so we can be the happy, harmonious family I so badly want up to be!

I realise a lot of you have NO idea what I'm talking about, that from where you're sitting we seem fine, LOL... In a way I'm relieved you think that... Living in our house for a week would probably shock most of you. The yelling, the threatening, and then there are my temper tantrums. It's not quite like a story from ACa, but wow, it doesn't have to be that bad for it to be an appalling environment for kids to grow up in.

It not Dave and I fighting with each other - we don't really do that. We snipe and bitch more than anything... It's us constantly at the kids. It's just not right, and I know it's stress, but that's not an excuse, it's a symptom, and symptoms mean action HAS to be taken... My kids deserve so much more than this, and we've let it slide far to long...

So, it feels good to have taken the first steps. We have to support each other now, so the method of healing doesn't create it's own wounds.

2 comments:

Shae said...

Hugs Sif-good for you for taking some massive steps!!!!

Cabrissi said...

Sounds like some big changes, a few of the things you've said really echo with me but I don't want to clog your blogs comments section! Seems like a lot of people going through big realizations right now though, I wonder what I'd find if I actually looked (novel concept) at where the planets and stars are at the moment!

Teenagers and the failing parent...