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Too many irons in the fire?

Have been feeling a bit tired lately, both physically and emotionally. Decided yesterday I might be overdoing it on the walking. Have been walking between 40 and 57km a week... So, took a bus yesterday and today instead of walking to or from the boys school. This was after walking 10 km on Monday (was going to walk 12.5 km but by the time I had to go to Tafe in the evening I was physically buggared)...

Also feeling very patchy emotionally though. I feel so easily thwarted at times, hmmm, that's not very well put, what I mean is sometimes it seems to take so little for me to feel like the world is not working with me but rather against me...

Was rabbiting on about this to my counsellor this morning and she pointed out that I have a lot of irons in the fire. I'm trying to learn about photography, already planning my next short course; trying to get back into Writing (bought a Writer's mag today for inspiration, and yes, that did work); Trying to get back into Knitting; and taking on the World's Greatest Shave challenge and raise money. As well as this, I'm wanting to be involved with the boys' school and get to know parents there, organise playdates for the boys. Trying to get Dave to get a lisence. Doing research for the move closer to the boy's school in 5 months time. Making plans to have another baby...

Basically, I have a million and one goals in my head, and it's not at all surprising that I'm having trouble staying focused on any one thing for more than 20 minutes at a time.

Yes, I'm aware that in the past I've had this tendency to run a bit close to the wire, and push myself a bit hard, but really I thought I'd overcome this flaw in my personality...

After I had Bryn I felt I'd achieved everything I wanted in my life and I felt like I was floundering for some new "goal", this went on for about 12 months, and then slowly I started to see things that were inspiring me, but somehow I've managed to "over do it" in the goal setting arena, and here I am racing from one thing to another feeling like I'm not managing to do anything to the level I want to...

I'm also stressing about money. I'm flat broke atm, and I really don't like this situation. So, I'm casting about for ways to make more money. Everything has such a long lead time though. I need something that will bring in money QUICKLY! Need to have a bit more of a think about it...

Oh, as I mentioned above, I'm participating in The World's Greatest Shave, and will be shaving my head on the 15th of this month (I want to do it today, LOL, but will force myself to wait)... If you haven't already, and you would like to sponsor me, go to http://www.worldsgreatestshave.com/profile.php?id=301020
and follow the prompts. It's credit card only deposits I'm afraid. So far I've raised $55. I haven't set a limit but would like to make it up to $250 at least, because I'd like to think that I've raised enough for three months counselling for one family. Only $195 to go then, I guess :D...

Comments

Amanda O. said…
Congrats on all the walking... wow, that sure does add up doesn't it? I need to get a pedometer to figure out how much I walk, prolly should be more. One thing would be if you're going to sustain that level of walking, you'll want to make sure you're getting the protein to maintain the muscle so your body doesn't start eatting muscle rather than just burning calories.

I really hear you about the whole "too many irons" bit. I tend to have to watch myself against this sort of thing as well because I am interested in a ton of stuff and love to just jump into whatever catches my attention full throttle, not delay them! I want to do them all and I want to do them all right NOW! LOL I think a part of it may be that I like the "rush" of the challenge, the adrenaline of pushing myself, pushing the deadlines and that is/can be a physical addiction, so maybe helps to think of it in those terms if that's the case fo you also? At the same time, at this point in my life I've had to realize I have to pace myself, pick a few to do now, choose which ones to put off till later. A friend of mine gave me the idea that I should think of my interests as purchases and my energy as money. I only have so much money to spend in a given day/week/month and have to decide WHAT I'm going to buy, even if I want it all because I simply don't have the money. I also keep telling myself if I do everything NOW, I won't have anything interesting to do later! ;-) Doesn't always work though, tough stuff!

Hope the money thing solves for you quickly. One thing I've been thinking of that maybe might be good for you too since you like to walk is dropping pamplets or such. It's a pretty easy job, I did it with Nic when I was preggers with La and really liked it, so have been thinking I might do it again.
Sif said…
Yes, I do think the "too many irons" phenomenon leads to a physical addiction to the "rush" of adrenalin in me. I know when I have little to do I feel very restless and on edge because I can't get my fix of "achieving" the scary balancing act.

This fits in well with the ADD traits I have too...

The money thing has sorted itself out with an advance on sales coming in, thank you very much Leah!

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