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The little things...

I've been suffering quite a lot of anxiety in the past week or so, and feeling like my world is crowding in on me - well at home, at least.

So, last night I was thinking about this, while chatting with Jayne, and thinking how I need to get me a better frame of mind. While trying to think positively might not actually change the realities of my life, it would definitely change my perception of that reality and perhaps change my physicality, at least in as much as reducing the adrenalin output my body is creating in response to the anxiety (which is also in turn creating more nervous energy, more anxiety)...

So, trying to think positively, and you know, it really isn't that hard because when I look around me there are many little things to feel good about, and many little things can add up to a whole lot good feelings...

So, yesterday Shae and Luke delivered the bed I'm buying off them. It's gorgeous, soooo comfy, even Dave had to admit it was nice and firm (he has always argued that inner springs can never really be very firm, and that's why he prefers futons). Dave moved back into our room last night - it's been nearly two years since he has slept in our room. He didn't snore, which was, quite frankly, amazing... We all had a bit of a restless night. I think Bryn was a bit unsettled have Dave there, but we'll get used to it. Dave was also worried about snoring, so I think he slept lightly - which might have been why he didn't snore. I felt quite hot, and I don't know if that was because it actually was warmer last night or if it was just that there were three bodies in the room??? Still, it was really nice, and the bed is really comfy, and it was awesome getting up this morning and not having to hoist myself up from a crouching position (because our other bed was so low to the ground). Bryn has already mastered getting on and off the new, higher bed, and cleverly uses the base of the bed as a step ladder (he's a smart cookie!).



Here's my little bogan boy sporting a dragon tatt! Ok, normally I wouldn't put something like this on a baby, or even on one of my boys, LOL, but it's just Luey, Bryn and I at home this morning, and to keep Luey happy - because Erik had gotten to go to work with Dave - I gave Luey this plastic spiderman type figurine to play with, and then Bryn was feeling put out, so I found this tattoo from a Twistie packet I'd eaten during the week, and popped it on his arm - he loves it! It's very cute on him, I think...



And a close up...



As I've already lamented to many this week, we're soooooo incredibly broke right now, more broke than Dave and I have ever been in all our years of living together... So, this morning I was VERY EXCITED to find a $20 note in a back pack I retrieved from the wardrobe for Erik to carry his lunch in to Dave's work! Don't you just love it when you find money you'd somehow forgotten about!?!

It goes some way to replace the nearly $24 I "lost" on a couple of sales on Ozebaby this week due to an inexplicable database error that saw my 25% discount on two items become a 50% discount at the checkout for the lucky buyer who snaffled both items. Being that we are so broke right now, I was really upset that I'd lost nearly $24 on this error, but now I feel a bit better about it...

We've just started baking our own bread again, using the breadmaker I got from Belinda last year for a song... I had a box of three loaves worth of ingredients sitting up in the cupboard all this time that I hadn't used, and so we decided to save some money that way. The smell of freshly baked bread is divine! Using prepackaged ingredients isn't very cost effective for us because the loaves average out to $2.70 a loaf, and we get loaves for under $2, but I was thinking maybe if we actually started from scratch it would be cheaper... Maybe something to look into.

It's the school holidays, so that means two weeks free of "conversations" with teachers. Yesterday Erik decided to cut a hole in one pair of Luey's jeans because he was angry at us for not letting him go outside when Shae and Luke dropped off the bed. I don't know what to think about this. Is this normal behaviour - maybe it is. We didn't know how to respond to his willful distruction, so basically he has to go and work off the cost of new pants for Luey at work with Dave. Meanwhile, I've cut off the worst of the damage, and will patch up a hole higher up and make Luey's jeans pants into jeans 3/4 shorts... It would be very handy to have a sewing machine right now, and to know how to use one...

I have to work out a budget so Dave and I can get back on an even financial keel.

Comments

Crazy Mumma said…
Hi Sif :-) Cute tat! Just on the bread thing - bulk prepackaged bread mix is cheaper than the individual packets, around $5-$6 for 2kg which will make 4 loaves, cheaper again if you buy 10kg (which you will go through pretty quickly if you bake instead of buy bread!). Cheers.
casso said…
Ah Julie, I should have known you'd beat me to the punch about bread, LOL! :o)

And Sif I feel you on the poverty pain - we had heaps of unusual bills this month (including a THREE HUNDRED DOLLAR fine for me going through a red light) and we are already skint and for the first time ever are living on a credit card until the middle of April. I hate it. I am sick of it. Plus I have no skills to market so I can't even do anything like knit or sew something to sell - it's very depressing. I would be uber happy with a $20 find! :o)

Cheers, Cass
Sif said…
And things actually got better again, later in the morning when the mail arrived, there was an Easter card in there for the boys from my Nanna, and $60!!! Now, obviously this money is for the boys, and we don't intend to rob them of their money, but we will have to pay them back on Thursday because this money means we can eat something better than 2 minute noodles for dinner (though when asked what he wanted for dinner, Luey exclaimed with great enthusiasm, "Noodles!"
Hey Sif :)

We are so poverty poor at the moment as well it is ridiculous. I actually have the next 3 pays bound up for bills already, and we havent even got them yet.

I was just reading the failsafe book (which Angel and I will be starting next week) and it had a recipe for Failsafe bread:

Emma's Bread (in the breadmaker)

2 1/2cups of plain flour
190ml water
1/4 cup milk or soy milk
1tbsp (failsafe) oil
1 pinch ascorbic acid powder(Vitamin C) (optional)
1 1/2 tsp of dried yeast

Put all ingredients in breadmaker, unless there is a seperate container for yeast. Set the timer and wait for the wonderful aroma. In a hot climate, the ascorbic acid helps to deliver well-risen bread every time. When finished, remove and cool before slicing. A good bread knife is essential.

:) I might try this this arvo as we have run out of bread (and no bread mix) and I have the other ingredients here already ;). I might even see how it turns out using rice milk as a substitute for milk/soy for Angel :)

That's excellent re the easter money :) . Also there is a website that I have used a few times where you tell them what you have (even if it is barely anything ;) ) and they come up with a recipe for you :)

I found this in my links but I am not sure if it is the one (its been a while since i used it) same principle though:

http://www.cookingbynumbers.com/frames.html
Sif said…
Hehehehe, Amanda, you know me and secrets, chances are you'll know the name by the end of the week, rofl!

Jen, my God woman, you must be reading my mind, I SWEAR, I was just thinking about "from scratch" bread recipes as I opened this page!

I'm going to give that recipe a try today, I'm imagining it's on the white bread setting, yeah? We don't normally eat white bread in this house, so I might look for some wholemeal flour or something to and modify the recipe.

I'm actually thinking of starting a frugality blog, hehehe... I need to make some changes around here about how we consume stuff, if only to keep us out of the poor house, LOL...
I would think that it is the white bread setting. From what I have read it is recommended in Failsafe (although I have only just started reading it) . Angel's Paed recommended white bread as wholemeal has too many grains and we wouldn't be able to tell which ones she has reacted to if she does react IYKWIM.

I am thinking of starting a failsafe blog as we just made the pikelets from the book and they were delicious :) the kids actually took them straight out of the pan, no toppings at all and ate the lot! lol.

Let me know how the bread goes..I have discovered I am out of plain flour and yeast...
Amanda O. said…
Whole worlds of yayness regarding the bed and Dave moving back in, not snoring (fingers crossed it continues)! That sucks about the database error... seems like they should eat that instead of you if it's their error? Love B's tattoo btw! ROTFLMAO! Good luck with the bread, I've never done it with a breadmaker machine but love baking breads! They're yummy and smell awesome and pretty inexpensive all up, esp if you buy in bulk. I have no idea about E cutting L's pants. I'm fairly sure I probably did something like that when I was younger but have no idea why or what made me stop, so real helpful insight there eh!

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