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Ideology

I'm all but ready to ditch ideology altogether.

It's all too hard... There are just too many ways to be "getting it wrong"... Too many ways I need to try to be "bettering myself". It's exhausting, I tell you! There is no way I can ever be good enough, conscientious enough...

I read about people boycotting everyting; companies who develop vaccines, companies to develop formula, companies who use toxic plastics, companies who dabble in slave labour, child labour, unethical business practices.

People don't consume products made in china, products containing chemicals, products that aren't organic.

Consuming anything new is bad, I totally agree! It's adding to all the overconsumption around us, the endless landfill, depletion of natural resources, the erradication of 100 of natural species of plants and animals around the world every year.

Then there are all the words we shouldn't use, all the words that oppress women (wimmin), and minorities (because women are actually a majority, but treated like a minority apparently, and no I'm not being sarcastic or flippant)...

There are all the food substances that are bad for us, caffeine, sugar, dairy, meat, wheat and other carbs, anything cooked actually.

Any animal products including leather, wool and honey.

I want to do it all, I've tried to all of this stuff at one time or another, and now I'm just overwhelmed and want to run and hide, and cease to exist as the vile creature that I, the human being have become in my self-absorbed state at the beginning of the 21st century.

But if I give up on ideology, then surely I will be everything I detest... If I manage to achieve all these ideals I'll quite literally cease to exist as there will be nothing I can eat, and I will have to jump in the ocean and suck up a lung full of salt water in order to stop polluting the planet and stop contributing to the demise of everything I consume.

Ack! What's the point of this post anyway...

Comments

HipbubbyMama said…
LOL..damned if you do, damned if you dont!

Oh and you know that thing about doing the best you can with the resources you have available? That applies here I reckon :)
Sif said…
Yeah, I know, LOL, I'm just bellyaching because I never feel like it's enough. It feels pointless, like trying to push hot soup uphill with a fork...

I know every little bit counts, blah, blah, blah, but you know what, it doesn't feel like it does at all. In fact, it feels like trying to do something on only half doing it is enough for other people heap a whole lot of judgement in the direction of the person who isn't bothering to turn their life inside out for a cause.

Like the nappy thing... Your start out with cloth, then it's ony wool covers, then it's only organic, locally made, slave free, bamboo (because it uses less water) nappies...

Or food, first it's don't eat crap food - certainly don't feed your child anything that isn't certifiably nutritous, then it's ony ever eat an organic, vegan raw food diet...

Never good enough, there is always someone prepared to tell you how you're spoiling it for everyone else with your lack of consciousness.

But what if you're completely aware but just can't mentally or emotionally handle the pressure any more, is that good enough, or is that just a cop out...
loz said…
MY take on it is this that I choose those few things that mean the most to me and my family the things we can do to make that bit of difference whatever it is for us and do it. Ideally yeah many of those things I would love to do but realistically for us it isn't possible.
It is not a cop out at all and those that say oh you should/shouldn't be doing this that or whatever that is based on their own importances and at the end of the day we can only do things that help us sleep better at night and those things aren't for the person next door but for ourselves for the greater good. Not saying that to mean we should only think of ourselves in anyway but saying that we need to pick our battles in a way.
casso said…
But Sif most of your angst in that comment is all about how others react to your decisions. Really, if you are approaching your decision making on food/nappies/consumables/everything with the issues that are of concern to your family (as loz mentions) then that's where you draw your line. If people want to come in and become vocal opponents to your own family-ideology-driven choices then your response can just be "Thanks for your input but we have decided on these limits for us".

It really shouldn't matter what others think of your purchasing decisions as long as you know you've put in the best combination of your ethics and your situation. Don't talk to Jimbo though - he thinks meat should be illegal! HAHAHA!!! :o)
Sif said…
I hear what you're saying Cass, but I don't think I made mysef very clear. I'm not so much worried about what other people think - I have moments of worrying about that, but the rational part of me usually sorts that out pretty quickly - it's about what *I* think about myself. I feel like I completely agree with all the ideals I've mentioned... I want to be a raw organic whole-food eating vegan, who wears only slavery free, recycled clothing and treads as lightly as humanly possible on the planet, is endlessiy understanding and patient and compassionate toward all people and creatures, communes with nature and doesn't participate in the rat race, doesn't fill my life and lives of my children with chemical ladened and natural resource comsuming paraphenalia.

I WANT to be able to do all this stuff, and NOT be weak and selfish and soft and consumerist...

I just feel so uselss within myself to do these things because I betray myself with my lust for convenience and comfort...
Bin said…
I hear and completely relate to what you're saying here, but I think the only way to stay sane is to let it go and do what you can, although I definitely have times where I definitely just want to do *everything* you've mentioned and it's just too hard...
Sif said…
LOL, Belinda, "let go", that should be my motto, it is supposed to be my life lesson, that's for sure...
Crazy Mumma said…
Hi Sif, I can completely relate to your post, I used to frequently have days where I would get almost depressed about my inability to do EVERYTHING I want to do RIGHT THIS MINUTE!

But then a friend pointed out that I don't expect my children to talk overnight, nor do I expect them to suddenly start doing long division. And that I revel in the process of them learning, helping them along with gentle guidance and positive feedback. So why heap crap on myself for not getting it "right" straight away?

My ethics are the basis for my everyday decisions but I acknowledge that I'm far from perfect, and I don't care. Sure, I occaisonally cop negativity from people with a "greener-than-thou" attitude, but hey, that's their problem!

Ethical/ green/ sustainable living is my new "baby", and I'm treating it as a learning journey like I did my children, with baby-steps.

Cheers, Julie

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