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Well, Bryn has been asleep in bed for the past four hours... Tonight, it was warm enough for him to go to sleep in our bed, instead of on the couch. Dave and I both lay down with him as he was a cranky pants at going to bed, despite having been Uber-whingey today (pretty out of character for him, excepting these past couple of days, so maybe his two year old molars are on the move?)... After about 40 minutes he drifted off, and so did we, I think because I came out at about 8.30, after what felt like a cat nap, and Dave soon followed, closing the bedroom door behind him. I wasn't sure if this was a good idea, being that Bryn has gotten used to sleeping in the noisier loungeroom over the past four months, but here we are, four hours later with not even a peep from the Buddha boy...

After Law and Order, Dave and I had a chat about the Erik at school, and interacting with the other parents at the school and so on, I think we're both feeling fairly comfortable there now, despite knowing that we don't share a lot in common with most of the parents there. We both tend to feel, and not in a bad way, that if we scratch the surface of most of the other parents there, they're more "white bread" compared to our "wholemeal" wrt life philosophy and parenting choices and political leanings etc. It's ok, and we don't feel superior to them, but we both feel that perhaps our way of being might be harder for other parents to digest, if that makes sense, so we both tend to "dull down" our conversations with the other parents. We have both outed ourselves mildly in difference circumstances and been met with slight recoiling, LOL, so we don't think we're projecting too much with our perceptions of the other parents... But yeah, I guess we feel like we're not total fringe-dwellers in the school community, if that makes sense...

After that, our discussion turned to writing, and the practice of writing. Dave and I have quite different methodology when it comes to writing stories and it was quite thrilling to rediscover that about each other tonight, and I'm feeling very sated by our conversation, like we've reconnected on one level, perhaps a more important level than we have in a while. It was our writing that first brought Dave and I together, but in recent years we've each busily plugged away at our writing paths in isolation to one another, and so tonight we were able to compare notes and discuss the merits of each other's style and method which was good fun!

I broke away from my vegan endeavours today and rediscovered my lactose intolerance. How can I continue to ignore this? I've always maintained it was quite a mild intolerance, but in all reality it's moderate. I had a thick shake today, and some chocolate tonight (didn't finish it, and that was WITH sharing with Dave, so I'm definitely lowering my intake threshold, which is great!)... And tonight I had bloating, wind, and a sudden rush to the loo, and off course, then it all came back to me, that this has been a regular occurance in my life that I've just accepted as normal, but well, it hasn't happened in the week since I cut out dairy, so hey, I need to stop doing this to myself!

And finally, remember the sense of doom I had this morning? Was talking with Dave about it earlier, and of course, he thinks it's about his Dad and that fact that FIL is increasingly becoming more frail and Dave believes that on the outmost, FIL only has another 12 months in him. That could be what my subconscious was processing, though my dread would be more about how to support Dave through this process, I guess... I'd had the impulse to call Dave and get him to call his parents today, but decided against it, and in hindsight that was probably a good thing, because Dave has been baring a great sense of his own dread over this in the past couple of weeks since having a D&M with his mum about his dad... No need for me to add to that...

Comments

HipbubbyMama said…
Oh the writing convo with Dave sounds lovely :) That's really cool!
Rae said…
Ooh discussing writing on the couch with your BOYfriend!!! ;)

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