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Mercury and Saturn must be aligning with Myanus...

Gawd, I feel so out of it!

I have had a head cold this week, and that will do it, but I just don't feel myself - which is kinda funny in light of having "lost" my identity this week. I feel like I've entered some alternative Universe!

I realised this morning that, of course, I haven't participated on AB much at all for the past week because it's been all bunged up, as well as that I've been preoccupied with all things related to finding my identity again. Then there is the whole surreal pseudo-communication of Facebook, which I can't decide if I like or loathe... Yes, it's fun to catch up with old friends, and send strange and interesting pressies and quests to other people, but it's also just a huge and frivolous waste of time time and energy that I really can't afford. But being out of touch with friends and acquaintences for various other reasons has meant I've felt the need to participate on facebook in order to stay "in contact"...

Of course, the house feels a mess, and my studies are a mess, too. I have a major assignment due next Friday, and the boys will be on holidays this week, and in order to prevent them from killing each other, or me killing them, I've offered to have friends kids over as well. On top of this I've got the skip arriving tomorrow, so I'm going to need to clear out all the crap from the house in the next three days, and I have this head cold which is clouding everything up.

Today I have a tupperware party, pmsl! Coz, I really NEED to add one more thing to my schedule and I really NEED slapper wear!...

In all honesty I'm going because I get to get away from the house and the kids, and I get to see my friends before a week of, um, of, I don't know, ISOLATION...

And what have I not mentioned here for a few days...

Yes, haing another baby. I just hasn't been up there in my thoughts. I'm still waiting for my plan, and AF arrived at the *USUAL* time, so I guess that is good, but right now I can't think about having any MORE kids...

So, all in all I don't feel like myself...

ADDENDUM: Having come back from the Tupperware party, and having had 4 bubblies of various kinds, I suddenly feel more myself! It was weird actually, by the second drink my head started to clear and I could feel the old me in there, emerging. What on EARTH does that mean, anyway, that I find myself after a couple of drinks??? No, this is not how I usually "find myself", in fact, I've never felt out of myself like this before, so it's been a weird week all up!

Comments

Kate said…
Ah see you think it was the bubbles, but I *know* it is the exposeure to such lovely plastic that revelas people's inner beings again.

LMFAO!

Was so great to catch up with you yesterday :D

*hugs*
clelkaje said…
Yep I reckon is was the plastic sending all the little water polymer molecules out and reshuffling your being back to normal. Glad you are feeling better, good luck with your busy week :)

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