Friday, October 12, 2007

He has agreed to ttc No. 4 in January!

Gosh, I feel shy posting about this now. I've been going on and on and on about this for so long, it's almost hard to believe he has actually agreed. This last week has been soooooo hard for me, and I've been swinging between trying not to care if he says no, and feeling like I'd have to leave every forum and stop talking to every friend in order to cope if he said no. The pain of seeing other people going down the path I so want to go down when I can't would be just too hard...

But now all that worry is behind me...

Dave came home last night and said he would give me an answer before we went to bed, but that he didn't want me to pester him all evening. As the hours passed I just go more and more tightly wound. I felt quite sick by about 11pm! I had convinced myself he was going to say no and he was waiting till just before we went to sleep to tell me so I wouldn't go off on him. I played all these scenarios in my head about how maturely I would deal with it, and how I would just get on with my life and let it go and focus on other stuff...

Then we went to bed, and in the dark he held my hand and told me that based on my arguments for having number and for how I'd cope etc. he would have decided to say no. However, he's decided to take a leap of faith with me. He's decided to do this because he loves me and wants me to have all my dreams come true and in order to that he feels the only thing he can do is support me in this. He still feels anxious about it all and he still feels just as reluctant as before.

LOL, I was umping for joy internally, but being just as sober and serious as him on the outside in respect for his feelings of trepidation, and then he says, "So, don't I get a kiss or anything?" LOL...

I haven't been able to really believe untill the last hour or so, so now I'm thinking I'm going to have to organise something really nice for him tonight...

So, there you go. LoA really, truly does work!!!

10 comments:

casso said...

Sif's blog post, January 1st 12.01am:

Jumped Dave's bones. Will try again in another half an hour

[repeat for the entire month of January]

:o)

Am really happy for you that this has all come together and fingers crossed your womb begets another womb!

katef said...

Oh I think that is so special that despite still feeling anxious he is willing to take a 'leap of faith' with you! I got all teary when I read that part...
Will have to get out my Harry Potter spell again LOL because you know I am predicting fraternal twin girls! LOL

Leah said...

So rapt for you, and Dave is such a great man. You know I know how much it is an act of love to get that commitment, feel the love! *gush gush*

And that's just the prelude, what exciting days!

Nic,Beren & Freya said...

Oh thats lovely ! :-) Yay for you both !

loz said...

Wooooo Hooooooo I am so happy for you, even got teary reading how Dave will take a leap of faith with you... Can't wait to watch you count down the months:):):)

Amanda O. said...

I *knew* it!

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I also have this feeling like, as important as this baby will be to you, this soul is has something special for Dave as well. For all his anxiousness and reserves about having another, he's being chosen as much as you are not only for what he can teach her but also what she can teach him. *serious moment over*

(PMSL at Casso! That needs a drink warning!)

Sif said...

Thanks everyone :D!

Amanda, yes I totally agree, this is the baby HE decided on, because this one I was ready to accept a no on (finally)... I think this is going to be one strong father/daughter bond!

Well, now I'm a bit overwhelmed with everything I have to organise in the next couple of weeks to get us started on this journey together. I'd put everything on the back burner till he gave me an answer so now I have to order supps for him and figure out a way to feed us all so at least he and I don't get bored (of course the boys can't go on the diet it's not healthy enough)...

Rae said...

Oh good on you Dave! You wonderful man you!

So happy for you Sif :) :) :) :)

Rae said...

P.S. and get back on the forums and facebook Sif. I've been missing you!

HipbubbyMama said...

yayness :D You go girl!

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