I'm at my wits end this morning, and have absolutely no idea what to do next.
Last night I discovered that Luey had punched holes in the lid of a milo tin when he could prize it open, to get at the milo.
This morning, I woke up to Erik having eaten two icypoles, and having made himself a milo as well.
I'm sure quite a few of you are wondering what the hell my dispair is about, LOL. It's just food. I know this, I'm not completely insane (though I feel like I'm bordering on it). This morning I've seriously considered just letting the boys have free reign on the food in the house. Just let them eat whatever they want, whenever they want. Not try to control it at all.
The very thought of that stirs deep fear in my stomach. As it is they, Erik especially, but recently Luey has broken his personal vow of abstainence as well - probably because he feels like he's missing out - steal food every single day. Not because we don't share what we have with them, or they don't get enough food, just because we set a limit on the amount they can have.
We set these limits because we CAN'T AFFORD for them to eat as much as they like. We simply can't afford to keep buying more. If they finish the food, and we simply refuse to buy more, it literally means that Dave, Bryn and I go without. To put this into perspective, there have been weeks when I haven't had food all day because Erik finished off food from my alotted foods (because I'm on this girl diet), and there is nothing else for me to eat. It actually makes me cry in dispair just to write this because I don't know what else I can do.
There have been times when we no money in the house at all and Dave had to borrow from petty cash at work because Erik ate the last of everything there was. And now Luey is doing it too.
We spend a considerable amount of our money on foods specifically for them, that Dave, Bryn and I don't eat. Their school lunches contain things none of the rest of us eat, like sultanas, fruit yogurt, biscuits, apples. We buy them things like icypoles as treats. Not a week goes by without them having some form of lollies and takeaway, just because they ask for it. They're not deprived.
I just really don't know what to do.
I've been reading so many different strategies this morning, but they seem to universally deal with toddlers. I totally understand the inability to think outside yourself that toddlers have, but these boys are 8.5 and 6.5, distraction doesn't work. They get up before us in the morning. There is no such thing as putting stuff out of their reach.
I've even considered locking the food up, getting a padlock for the fridge. I'm not going to do that though, because that is just not the sort of parent I want to be. So, then my only option is to accept that my children will eat whatever they want whenever they want and not give a fuck about anyone else in this house.