Thursday, May 22, 2008

Just a bit of a general update...

It occurred to me last night that while many of you readers out there (of my blog that is) know me elsewhere and might generally be aware of the happenings in my day to day life, a few of you only know me through this blog, and so it might be time to do a little update on my life atm...

Baby Stuff...

~ We found out last Monday that our baby is a boy :). Yes, after all that effort and hoping and whatnot, we still managed to conceive a boy. I still believe in all the good that a-gender does, btw, not blaming them at all... In fact, I've just decided that Dave's girl sperm must be slightly "special" and swim in circles, and so even though there were probably only about a million boy sperm in the vicinity of the egg at the time of ovulation (instead of the billion that might otherwise be there without a-gender intervention), these boy sperm made a bee line for the egg, while the girl sperm happily swam in circles oblivious to the "action" taking place just millimetres away...

~ It's fair to say I'm a little upset about not having a girl this time (or ever), but let me make this point absolutely clear... I'M ESTATIC TO BE HAVING A BABY BOY!!! I'm just really sad that I'll never have a daughter to do all the stuff that will now be kept locked up in my heart...

~ Our baby's name is Leo Ari Dal *Surname*, not the name I'd decided on for a boy, but Dave was having difficulty with the name I had decided on, and so these names were picked out of my "it has to come from this list of names" list...

Study...

~ What can I say, all my writing mojo has gone AWOL. My laptop decided it couldn't work without any free memory space (what's with that), and right now I'm too poor to affod the $200 it's gong to cost me to get memory freed up so I can do something about archiving all my photos (which are taking up all my free memory space)...

~ I've decided to do my degree part time next semester to give me another six months to finish the thesis - tbh, I can see myself taking an extra year. I totally underestimated how much work this writing gig was going to be - what do you expect from a rank amateur, really? - there is so much I still don't know about characterisation and plot that it could probably fill an encyclopedia...

Family life...

~ We're all hobbling along... Dave is still only working part-part time, and keeps talking about getting another job. Deadline after deadline fall by the wayside and recently he turned down an offer for more work in the job he's doing atm, on priniciple - the principle being that his boss should be employed someone dedicated for admin and not trying to save money by getting his grapho to do admin work... While I get it on a principle basis and admire Dave for being principled, principles won't pay the bills or put food on the table...

~ Erik's stealing has been "diagnosed" as an attachment issue he has with me (primarily) which is creating anxiety for him - read more in the previous blog entry...

~ Luey continues to struggle with intense emotions, usually emotions related to feeling that other people don't like him or don't want to play with him (at school). It's funny, whenever Dave drops him off at school, or I pick him up, he seems to be happily playing with the other kids. He seems quite accepted and kids often call out to him in a friendly manner, "Hi Luey!"... And yet, he often tells us no one likes him or talks to him, or that he's had a bad day. If other children admire a hat he's wearing or something else he has, he takes that as a criticism. He hates focused attention on himself, and yet he also seems to crave it... Peculiar child.

~ Bryn, a lot has been happening with Bryn. For one thing, he has a "green fairy" who stalks him and who he really doesn't like, and is constantly getting me to tell to "Go Away, Green Fairy!!!" He first saw the green fairy outside the living room window one night, and since then it pesters him every few days... He's also had a few night terrors - two nights ago, he won't up on the couch screaming, and ran to the far corner of the dining area and hid behind a chair for a few minutes before coming to me for a hug... He wakes, usually 3-4 times a night, with a wail, and then I reassure him and he goes right back to sleep.

Bryn got new winter shoes yesterday - dunlop volleys in navy with little diamond shapes on them in red, orange, green, blue and yellow! He loves then and alternatively calls them his "Happy shoes" or his "Stomping shoes" (stomping is also a happy term, nothing to do with anger)...

Bryn has started chucking almighty tantrums in the last month - total screamers. Sometimes I can "bring him back" by singing nursery rhymes and songs to him (he has loved this method of calming down since babyhood), which involves me starting the first line of a song, and him saying no, no, no, until we've almost exhausted the repetoire, and then when he's fairly calmed down, he'll tell me which song he wants to hear and I'll sing that a couple of times and he'll tell me another and so on... Other times (only abotu twice, now) he just has to keep screaming till he done screaming because nothing will calm him down...

Bryn is back to sleeping in our bed full time. Which in and of itself is not a big deal, though it might become a big deal in October. He pretty much started doing this as soon as I got pregnant, like he just *knew* - as kids often do...

Summary...

There are a lot of stresses atm, I guess, and some days I'm feeling totally overwhelmed and other days it's all ok, just part of life. I've made my kids sound like they're all emotionally disturbed, rofl, but honestly, mostly they're happy and just kids... Having a fourth will be fun in a lot of ways. The boys all (mostly) get along really well, and are all very happy to be having a little brother, so I think Leo will probably slip into the litter quite easily. Dave will get more work or another job, and I will finish my degree, so really, it is all good... I just have to remember that on days when I feel like I'm walking on quick sand!

2 comments:

katef said...

Just read your bit about being sad not having a girl buts till being happy having a boy and had a light bulb moment... not like I have any idea what it is like to be in your position but I think for the first time I am beginning to understand... it sounds a lot like me. I was/am happy to have twins but I am still sad I didn't get to have just one baby...

Oh and I wonder if Bryn's green fairy is related to my girls 'Man in the green shirt' who seems to pop up at our house at the oddest times and freaks me the hell out!

I hope everything is going to suddenly fall into place for you guys, one way or another, really soon!

Nalin said...

Hey Sif, I see the name you have chosen for your little one is the one you told me about a while ago, when you first found out about my chosen surname, Arileo! How cool! So he will be little Lion Lion too!

Teenagers and the failing parent...