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Sacred Space - are modern homebirthers missing out?

I was in the shower today thinking how much I feel like I'm having a baby for the first time again. When I had Erik 9 years ago I really had no idea what to expect. I'd seen birth as portrayed on tv and in movies, in docos and in books. I knew it wasn't glamourous or necessarily quick. I was naive in experience, but not completely naive in information. So, I could imagine birthing, but I really just didn't know what to expect.

And so, here I am again, and again, I can imagine having this baby at home, but I don't know what that's going to be like, because so many things will be different - the space will be different.

I have to admit that part of me is mourning the "special space" that is going to hospital. This may seem very strange to others who have chosen homebirth as so many choose to birth at home because that IS their special space, and the hospital is a foreign space...

But anyway, I'm going to ramble through some thoughts here...

Ok, I …

The scent of Spring!

There is supposed to be rain developing later today, and there will be rain throughout the week to varying degrees, but right now there is almost a warm breeze outside!

I feel like I'm slowly waking up from a deep sleep myself. It's two steps forward and one step back, but I am starting to feel more awake in the past day or two. I'm feeling very lethargic on a strictly physical basis, but I can feel the need to start getting myself sorted for the impending changes on a mental and spiritual level.

Got to take Bryn to a birthday party tomorrow - his first individual birthday invite!

The boys have been attending after school care this week. So far, it's been a major success. To the point that on Wednesday I picked Luey up from school at bell time, and he was not at all happy about missing out on after school care. I guess, they're still full of beans at that time of day, whereas that's my physical low point, so at ASC they get to run about, and release energy, a…

Check out the baby ticker!!!

I've been waiting for this day for about 10 days now!

Less than 50 days to go until my due date! But more significantly than that even, it´s been 50 days since I was all excited about there being less than 100 days to go!!! That feels like it was a fortnight again, but in that much time again I´ll be 'due'!!! 50 days ago was the 11th of July - last month!!!

The half lifes until this baby comes are just getting shorter and shorter!!!

That said, I told Dave last night I only have 50-75 potential "good night's sleep" left now. Eeeeek!

Anyway, here's another "set" I knitted last night...

Nesting knitting...

What do you do when you want to nest, but you sooooo don´t feel up to cleaning...

You knit, of course...

These are a hat and a toy for the baby, knitted from 100% yarn. I totally fell in love with this yarn the other day, and despite it being horribly expensive, I just HAD to have it. It is the softest thing I´ve ever knitted with, and if I was more confident, I´d knit this baby a $120 jacket out of it, hahahaha!



And here is a hat Bryn wanted knitted out of this lovely verigated green merino/acrylic/cashmere yarn...

The Boss...

I'm sure this will probably come off like we have some sort of power struggle going on in our house, but we really don't, and so what, this is cute, anyway...

Bryn was just scootering around the house chatting to himself, and I overhear the following...

Bryn: You're not the boss of the house. I'm the boss of the house...

So, I ask him, "Are you the boss of the house, Bryn?" and he replies, "Yes, I'm Bryn and I'm the boss of the house!"

Hehehe, I have no idea where this concept come from as this is not something that is an issue here, but obviously it's something he's thinking about...

Now what was it Kaz Cooke said about Attachment Parented children growing into "little tyrants"? PMSL...

Mum's operation happening today: Take II

3.10pm - Ok, just got a call from mum, and about 30 minutes ago it looked like she was going home, and now they've just told her she's having the operation today (probably?)... She's heading off for an ultrasound now, and will call when she's about to go down to theatre...
SUNDAY MONDAY TUESDAY WEDNESDAY THURSDAY FRIDAY SATURDAY








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Woot!!! The 7 Day Forecast is finally something worth getting excited about!!!

Mum is having her operation today...

Bring on the healing!

What goes up, must come down...

Ok, this past week has been so awful (though it's had it's bright points, but I'll get to those in a minute), that I can't even begin to explain how numb and spaced and just surreal I feel right now...

Early last week I contracted a headcold, which led to several nights of little or no sleep, but ran it's course relatively straightforwardly, with no real sinusitis, which was a definite positive...

Then we had Bryn birthday, which was also a big positive.

After Bryn's birthday though, things started the roll down hill. I guess it started with an overwhelming tiredness. Monday wasn't too bad, but on Tuesday morning I woke up just feeling completely physically and emotionally drained. Luckily, I wasn't going to playgroup that day, so I pretty much blobbed around in my PJs, until I caught a cab to pick the boys up. The cab was running late but one of the mums from Erik's class was kind enough to wait with the boys, unasked...

Wednesday was just a blur o…

Mundane Stuff...

Ok, so today I don't have to go pick the boys up from school, whoo hoo!!!

Instead, I HAVE to get the dishes done, the loungeroom cleaned, and the clothes off the bedroom floor!!! A load of washing wouldn't go astray either...

Have been good though, just paid four bills!

Am on a bit of mission there though. Seriously, I think Telstra, in particular is trying to diddle us. I swear to god we paid up with the completely (phone and bigpond) in July, and then we get this "overdue" bill at the beginning of August for Bigpond. So, I'm on a mission to catch them out. As of five minutes ago, we're COMPLETELY up to date with:

Telstra
Bigpond
AGL (gas)
Yarra Valley (water)

Tomorrow, Dave will take care of the monthly installment for electricity...

I have recorded the receipt numbers for the above four bills on both the bills themselves, AND in my diary on today's date. In the past, I've had receipts and called up these bloody companies to dispute billing amounts and…

Wacky Wednesday...

Bloody Hell, what a day!!!

Had a big whinge this morning because the house is a tip, and I have no energy (really need to take those iron tablets more regularly) and there was no food in the house, and I had to cook dinner (which mean doing the dishes first because EVERY SINGLE DISH in the house is dirty) and pick the boys up from school...

Anyway, after my whinge, one of my wonderful doulas decided to deliver lunch to my door, so that I wasn't starving, at least - what a godsend!

I got a call from s-dad saying mum is hospital with a bad gallbladder attack (is there any such thing as a good gallbladder attack), so had to call bro to let him know. Then ordered some flowers to be delivered to the hospital - a poor second to actually being able to visit myself, but well, the Barossa Valley is a little far away from Melbourne...

Decided to do a round cab trip to pick the boys up, just don't have the energy or will to do the whole 4 buses round trip with toddler and 31 week belly in t…

Erik's future wife...

LOL, yesterday Dave came home with a funny anecdote about Erik...

Dave took the boys to school in the morning and shortly after dropping Erik off at his class, the boy comes bounding back to him all excited!!! "I got an invite to M's birthday!!!" he exclaimed waving the envelope under Dave's nose before running off with it again... A minute later the girl who's birthday he'd just received an invite to marched up to Dave, presented him with the invite and the envelope it had been enclosed in, and then turned to Erik and snapped, "I TOLD you NOT to open it!"... Erik just looked at her sheepishly, shrugged his shoulders and said, "What???"

PMSL, now why do you suppose I have the feeling we just got a glimpse of Erik's married life? Of his "type" of girl (I mean besides the fact that none of his girl friends have been wilting wallflowers), LOL... Marrying his mother, not much!

The dental debacle...

Well, this whole broken tooth thing with Dave hasn't exactly reassured either of us that dental practices have improved much in the past 25-35 years...

Dave went off to see his parents recommended dentist and came home with tooth in tact three weeks ago because he had an infection which needed to be cleared up before any procedure could be undertaken...

He was scheduled to see the dentist again a fortnight later, and in the meantime he needed to get full mouth xrays, despite having had xrays at the dentist office on the morning of that initial appointment...

So, last Monday he went back again. Only to return home again with the tooth in tact. The repeat prescription for the ABs he's already had before seeing the dentist the first time hadn't done anything much to the infection (though Dave wasn't feeling the symptoms of that infection anymore, thank goodness). Dave had already suggested to the dentist at the previous appointment that it might be a good idea to prescrib…

Bryn's LOA'd birthday party...

Dave and I were talking about the differences between the boys yesterday, particularly about how they go about "achieving". Erik (like me), is all about the acclaim, LOL. He likes the admiration he gets from doing something easily and well. If he finds something challenging, he is more likely to not pursue it than to keep perservering. He is the one we talk to about how the benefit of sticking with something, and also about how if you aren't instantly a success with something, it doesn't mean you're a failure...

Luey, who is our "little whinger", LOL, often finds things challenging to begin with. Mostly this stems from the fact that he *expects* things to be hard. HOWEVER, he's realised over the years that if he perserveres, he is likely to learn from his mistakes and do better each time he tries. This works out really well for him with regards to competing with Erik, because he seems to understand that when Erik achieves something easily, he …

Milestones...

Thought I'd blog a couple of the boys milestone...

First one, from Bryn today... His VERY FIRST "Why?"...

It wasn't, "Why is the sky blue?" or. "Why is water wet?"... No, it was far more personal that that... He asked me, "Why do you like Chocolate, Mum?" Oh dear, hahaha, he's an observant little thing, isn't he...

The other milestone belongs to Luey... It's not really a first, but in a way it is... Yesterday was his first day back at school after being sick for a couple of days, and what happens? He gets smacked in the face with a basketball. It knocked one of his loose front teeth out. He was asked if he wanted mum or dad to pick him up from school, but declined (he'd just spent two whole days at home, LOL, so being at school was MUCH more fun!)... So, we got home with the tooth in a little plastic bag and set it up for the tooth fairy. Then he and Bryn and Erik were mucking around the bedroom, wrestling as usua…

Well, there is sun today...

Such as it is, still coldy oldy, but sun all the same.

Unfortunately, I´m stuck in the house again. Luey was supposed to go back to school today but had a bit of a temp and a rotten cough this morning, and I REALLY need him to be better by Saturday because Bryn´s birthday cake has been ordered, so if I have to cancel the party, we´ll be eating cake for breakfast, lunch and dinner the whole weekend. I´m sure the boys wouldn´t mind, mind you...

I got some fluffy mail the other day; two smart arses (aka bum geniuses) and a twinklelily. The BGs are great, though wider in the crotch than I'd imagined, but I was just having a second, longer look at the Twinklelily, and it's MARVELLOUS!!! It's so trim, and so well cut and yet promises to be super-duper absorbent for heavy wetters, and at under $30 for an AIO, it's pretty good value, too. Cannot wait to try it for wear...

Have also ordered some bamboo and alpaca yarns from the local wool shop. More expensive than buying at …

Longing for Spring...

I have such a deep longing in me for Spring today. I want to feel sunshine on my skin and have warm breezy days, and a green, leafy maple tree in my front yard. I want to wander along the street leading up to the boys school with Bryn riding along on his new scooter.

The cold is really bringing me down this week. Having a cold isn't helping, but I've turned the corner on that score in the past 12 hours or so, and can feel that I'm on the mend. I feel really tired though from the lack of sleep the three night preceding last night... I think all the activity on the weekend has caught up with me.

Luey has my cold and is home sick today. He was out on the couch this morning, but that was just causing trouble between him and Bryn - mostly because they were larking around, so I've packed him off to his bed, and despite his early protests of being "better now", he's dropped off to sleep and is having a long, and hopefully healing nap...

So, plans to go to pla…

Technically, less than 10 weeks to go...

Obviously, none of my babies have been born before their due date, and so the likelihood of going early is very, very small. But putting that aside, I have less than 10 weeks to go, as far as the technical counting of 40 weeks goes. Leah has been doing a big declutter in the past month which basically came to a close yesterdy, and it feels a bit like the gauntlet has been passed as my 'nesting' begins today...

The first job off the rank is a big one. We´re swapping the boys´ room over for the study. We´re doing this to three boys into a slightly more spacious room, but also one that doesn´t face East or West, so won´t catch the early sunrise or the late sunset of summer. It is also the only room in the house with a South facing window, so hoping it should be cooler in summer, and being that it also directly opposes the loungeroom it is more likely to catch the heat from the gas heater...

On a downside, it is the adjoining room to our bedroom, so we´re more likely to hear ev…

Blergh!

I have a head cold! What a way to start the "home stretch" of this pregnancy!

On a brighter note, I guess it might be a good omen that I won't get sinusitis in the last couple of weeks of the pregnancy like I did with Bryn...

So. Tired.

As well as this, I'm feeling a great need to gripe about the fact that the Olympics are upon us. I've seriously been dreading this day all year!

Did I ever tell you guys that I qualified for the Disabled Olympics in 1984 - Los Angeles (hmmm, suddenly I'm umsure as to how to spell L.A.)...

Well, the reason being that I was in Iceland at the time, and well, Iceland doesn't have a lot of people, let alone disabled people, so all I had to do to qualify was beat one other person in the 50m breast stroke...

I didn't end up going because I really didn't understand the "magnitude" of this honour, and wasn't at all motivated to "train" 5 days a week for two hours every afternoon...

Anyhoo, this pretty m…

The Problem Is...

Picking up the boys this afternoon from school. Erik managed to drag his heels getting up to the front gate. Understandable because I usually bribe them with the promise of a treat if they're quick, but today he knew one wasn't coming because yesterday he was unduly mean to his brother so I withheld the treat, only to have him help himself to it later in the afternoon, and therefore I told him he would not be getting his treat today, in lieu of yesterday...

While I was waiting I was chatting with another mum at the school who has two daughters, and usually these girls are very quick to come to the front gate, but today the younger one - who is 8 - kept her mum waiting even longer than Erik kept me waiting.

We usually walk up to the bus stop together and chat. This mum and I have gotten to know one another over the past year, and while everyone is always friendly to her (the parents of other children smile and say hello etc.), we've kind of bonded over the bus run and over…

I need download the photos off my computer...

Because right now I'd love to show you guys my laptop propped on two phone books so I don't have to hunch down over my belly to see the laptop screen, rofl... I'm seriously typed this post right under my child, hahaha.

Today, 75 days before my estimated due date, turned out to be the day my belly expanded just that little too much for me to hunch over the laptop without feeling like the baby is trying to pitch a tent under my ribcage...

I'm just done a round of the AB blogs and found a couple of blogs I'm sure I hadn't seen today before today, names I don't recognise. I need to bust out of my insular little shell and get to know these people, hahaha - if you're reading this Kell, or Dit, welcome to the blogring!!!

Next weekend my brother is coming over and we're swapping the boys' room over with the study. That means moving 6 bookcase full of books, dvds, cds, kinds toy and odds and ends, a set of bunks, a single bed, a computer desk, filing cab…

Dear Heart...

Parenting can be such a double edged sword, can't it...

The other day, Erik came out of the school gate and told me he'd just run into a preppie and knocked him over because he just didn't see him (the preppie) because another friend was chasing him (Erik)... Anyway, he apologised, but the dad of the other boy didn't hear the apology and yelled at Erik for being reckless and demanded he apologise again. Which Erik did. Erik was a bit upset that he had already apologised but because the preppie told his dad he hadn't and the dad believed his son (as any parent would I guess) Erik ended up getting into trouble anyway...

The following day, Erik came out of the school yard with a big emerging bruise on his left cheek. It seems that he and a bunch of kids in his class had been playing Tiggy and Erik had been "It" and he'd tagged another boy, who refused to be considered "tagged", so Erik tagged him a second time, and the boy headbutted him in t…