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Longing for Spring...

I have such a deep longing in me for Spring today. I want to feel sunshine on my skin and have warm breezy days, and a green, leafy maple tree in my front yard. I want to wander along the street leading up to the boys school with Bryn riding along on his new scooter.

The cold is really bringing me down this week. Having a cold isn't helping, but I've turned the corner on that score in the past 12 hours or so, and can feel that I'm on the mend. I feel really tired though from the lack of sleep the three night preceding last night... I think all the activity on the weekend has caught up with me.

Luey has my cold and is home sick today. He was out on the couch this morning, but that was just causing trouble between him and Bryn - mostly because they were larking around, so I've packed him off to his bed, and despite his early protests of being "better now", he's dropped off to sleep and is having a long, and hopefully healing nap...

So, plans to go to playgroup today were abandoned and while I really miss the social aspect of talking to the other mums, I have to admit that I really probably do need some down time. I'm catching up on laundry and pottering around doing the housework I routinely try to avoid - despite me always feeling better when it's done...

But the cold from outside is leeching into the house and draining my energy and I just want to go have a nap myself - if only Bryn was able to nap and still go to bed at a respectable hour in the evening, rofl...

The reality of a new baby joining us in just two months time (more or less) just hasn't sunk in. I have nappies to prewash, and clothes to prewash, and I can picture myself snuggling a little newborn, but honestly it just feels like the same old imaginings that I had when I was in the "still trying to convince Dave" phase of this baby... It feels like it could just as easily be a daydream that won't eventuate... I guess it just doesn't feel real yet. I'm sure it will once the baby is actually here...

Spring seems like such a long way away...

Comments

katef said…
me too on the spring thing... I am so over winter... I feel like I have so many plans 'on hold till the weather gets better' and it is driving me nuts... and I don't even have a little bundle to be waiting for!!!
Roll on sunshine!
Juniper said…
I agree, roll on sunshine! And I also agree that you should take some down time when you need it. We missed you, but I know with you living so close, I can see you whenever (and am hoping to next week anyway for some knitting tips!).
Amanda O. said…
Me three! VERY sick of the cold and the wet and the COLDANDWET meaning I have to camp out in front of the fire to avoid freezing... c'mon spring and sunny summer, we're stircrazy! ;-p

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