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What he does by day, that I wish he'd do by night...

With the Baby Bonus papers lodged, I'm going to risk my laptop dying again, to share some of the daily miracle that is Mr Tiny... Now, if only this sleeping beauty could do this at night...






Bring on December already...

Well, LOL, having successfully whinged my way through 9 months or so of pregnancy, and then having a wonderful birth experience, I'm now nipple high (which isn´t as high as it used to be) in the realities of life with a newborn...

I haven't sleep much in a week thanks to prelabour and then the post birth high, and now the micro mini party animal who has taken up residence in our usually nocturnally orderly household...

For the past two days, he's slept like a, erm, well, a baby throughout the day, with barely any wakefulness, and then come the midnight hour he's decided to wake up and feed and scream and gaze adoringly at the shadows on the walls and ceiling until 4-5am...

I've tried to sleep, but I'm still very sore from the birth (SPD-y and swollen, tender perineum - no, smaller babies are NOT much kinder), so being forced to lay on my back with a restless baby on my chest (and worrying about dropping him when I do sleep) has meant a lot of dozing, and no restor…

Ari's birth story (well the salient bits anyway)...

I've copied and pasted this from another blog I do for a forum - so, if it seems a bit "third person" that's why, LOL...

There are so many more things to say about this birth, but I'll get to those things later, LOL...





He's three and a half days old now, and snuggled down in his rocker next to me. He's been asleep for most of today, as he did yesterday, so tonight will probably be a very wakeful night, as last night was! It's funny how we forget the depths of dispair that can be felt at 3.30am on the third night post partum, when your milk has just come in and your hormones are wild and woolly and your baby is only going to sleep with a nipple in his mouth, but then only as long as you are sitting bolt upright...

Then the next day (today), you doze for a couple of hours with him on your chest at lunch time and suddenly, everything is ok again...

Oh, but I wouldn't have it any other way.

So, here is Tiny's (that's his nickname, you'll see …

The Looong Weekend...

It's been a very long weekend here this weekend.

Spent all of Friday waiting on news about the lovely Leah and her precious little boy bundle. Had had a few niggles, but just felt like nothing would start up for real until I heard that baby Bang Bang was earthside.

Saturday morning brought the wonderful news of his post midnight birth, and the timing was good because I'd been having a few actually painful contractions during the night, and into the wee hours of the morning. These picked up once I knew Leah and the baby were safe and sound, and I had high hopes of our little bundles having the same birthday :)...

However, by about midafternoon the contractions, which had been 20 minutes apart, and not so painful that I couldn't talk through them, petered out to about 45 minutes or so. I managed to even catch a nap for 1hour and 15 minutes without a contraction!

When I woke up (with a big, ouchy contraction), they resumed the 20 minute timeline, and kept that up for about 4.…

41 weeks today...

Today is the really big deadline day for Dave. Of course, it's also the first day I woke up and thought I wish he could stay home. Oh well, he'll be home tomorrow - though so will the boys... Unfortunately, all the people who are supposed to have artwork in to Dave by now are being slackers and so there's a very good likelihood that Dave will need to go in Monday and Tuesday as well, which I'm beginning to feel like I'd really rather he didn't.

It occurred to me just before that there is a pretty good likelihood that this time next week I'll be holding my baby. If this baby was to be born at the same gestation as Bryn, he'd be two days old in a weeks time. Of course, that might not happen either. In that case, I will actually get to have a November baby! I've always wanted a November baby. I don't know why. I really love the month of November - much better than October actually, which is probably the calendar month of the year that I'…

Goodness, now how do you suppose that happened?

It's been a big day.

Mum had her gallstones/gallbladder out today.

They were going to attempt keyhole surgery, but in the end they found they had to do the full cut. She now has five wounds to heal from, but is happy as Larry to finally have this behind her... The two stones which were removed were quite large. The larger one was dark - as a result of too thick bile, and was cylindrical, measuring 4cm in length and 2cm in diameter. The second one was lighter, as a result of non-ideal diet, and measured 2cm in diameter (I'm assuming it was spherical)...

The operation took 3 hours.

The op had originally been schedule for a week ago, the day before my due date, and that was causing me quite a bit of anxiety. I was quite relieved when it was rescheduled for a week later, as somehow I felt that gave me more time to give birth and possibly be able to fly over to SA if mum needed me (yes, I probably wasn't being very realistic there, travelling with a baby on a few days old etc.…

Things this baby is probably waiting for...

Today is the last day of Libra. Lucy said Libra would be more advantageous to this child than Scorpio, but right from the beginning of this pregnancy - well, actually even before I knew I was pregnant, when I knew there could be a possibility of me becoming pregnant - I maintained that to fit into this family this child would be best served being a Scorpio.

The other thing is... Of course, waiting for mum to have her operation - how very "my family" of this baby to want to be part of a drama, hahaha!

Waiting for Luey's preferred date... The 25th would actually be a good date, four months after Luey's birthday, two months before Christmas...

Waiting for more "Spring-like" weather! Can you guys believe how cold it's been in Melbourne so far this week??? Seriously, if I had the choice between being tucked up in a nice dark, warm pool of water, or coming out into this chilly weather, I'd be staying put, too!

A weekday that connotes something positive.…

A new theory on when this baby will be born - and things I'm looking forward to...

It dawned on me this morning that there is a clue to when this baby will be born. If he, like his brothers follows the tradition of being born on otherwise significant days, he'll arrive on Thursday...

Here's why;

Erik - was born the day Dave's dad had reconstructive knee surgery.

Luey - was born the day Dave's dad was admitted to hospital for a hernia operation.

Bryn - was born on my mum's 55th birthday...

Right, so following this pattern, this baby MUST be waiting for mum's gallbladder op day. Which is currently scheduled for Thursday. It was actually scheduled for last Thursday but then was postponed (don't you love the public system, LOL). So, assuming it isn't postponed again, I think I'm in with a good chance of having this baby on Thursday!

I also wanted to list the things I'm looking forward to in the NEAR future (have stolen this idea from a wise friend!):

Meeting my baby, and seeing what colour hair he has!!!No longer being in a "ho…

To Do list for today...

When wanting to punch a hole in the wall, Confucius say clean the house...

Tidy the living room (me)
Tidy the dining room (me)
Tidy the bedroom (me)
Tidy the kitchen and wash the dishes (Dave)
vacuum (me) and wash the floors (Dave)
Clean the bathroom (me)
Clean the toilet(me)
Wash and dry the baby's pouch (me)
Do this week's grocery shopping (Dave)
Go to the movies (ME)

Bloody Lego!!!

Used to be that lego came in big packs with multi-use bits, wheels, axels, thingy-ma-bobs, and you used your imagination to build all sorts of wild and whacky creations from flying houses to racing cars with swimming pools in them (or maybe that was just at our house)...

These days you can basic tubs of blocks in varying sizes, shapes and colours. OR, you can buy purpose build "scenes", more often than not designed as merchandising from blockbuster movies...

This has caused a huge debate in our house, because my wonder Dh never actually had much lego as a child (if any at all), and as well as this, he was an only child who never had to share his toys. He was a rule follower who didn't think laterally in play (or at least that is the impression I've gotten from what he's told me)...

So, we've invested a fair amount of the toy budget in lego for the boys. I love that they play with lego... At first we got them a big tub of bricks, and since then we've adde…

40 weeks today!

The ticker says I have 0 days left until baby is due...

Thankfully, and as expected, he hasn't chosen today to be his birthday - well, I guess he still could, but I'm really not expecting him to, and after the big day of walking, talking and shopping that I've had, I'd much rather sleep tonight than give birth - Hahahahahaha!

I bought (coz, you know you want to know the details!):

A boppy pillow

A small pink Tupperware bottle (I have the big gray one, but wanted something smaller).

A Bubblebubs AIO

A Bubblebubs "Just Hatched" cover

A Totsbot newborn cover in grey with white stars

A Stinkybotz nappyholder/changemat

A years subscription to the ABA (got my free Pinky McKay "Toddler Tactics" book too)...

A 9 book children's pack of books for $50

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Yeah, so my pubic bone is a little tender, LOL... But it already was after shopping at Doncaster yesterday...

So, now I'm *ready* hahaha... Some time, in the next two weeks (ho…

Just a note on my previous blog from this morning...

I told you I'd be sheepish about that last blog...

So, with more self-analysis, I've come to the conclusion that I'm feeling frustration and little jealous that other people all seem to have full and exciting lives at the moment, while I feel like I'm in some sort of holding pattern and too boring for anyone to want to actually spend any time with...

Yes, I'm chucking myself a late pregnancy pity party for one...

Unspecial...

The following is a completely self-indulgent post, not at all directed at any individuals, LOL, just commenting on a general phenomenon that strikes this brain in late pregnancy. In fact, feel free to read and write off as some sort of hormonal side effect that this writer will probably be embarrassed about in weeks to come, but at this moment believes there might be some socialogical intrigue about...

A while ago, another pregnant friend mention that this being her second pregnancy, had left her feeling a little disappointed, a little ignored, or unspecial. With her first pregnancy, people noticed she was pregnant and they took special consideration to her pregnancy. At the time this friend told me this, I didn't really relate to what she was saying. I had been aware of the decline in excitement over subsequent pregnancies, but felt it was just a normal evolution as people no longer found it novel that I was having a baby. Afterall, I'd done it before.

I felt a little smug…

Head Spin...

Hmmm, well, this morning when I was lammenting being bored, I had NO IDEA of the bombshell Kevin Rudd was about to drop on the Australian public...

I've just spend two hours in a head spin!

It seems that because of the world economic crisis, created by greed and the need to "profit, profit, profit", our economy is slowing down... Well, when something has grown out of sight for a few years (thanks Johnny for your legacy of "feeding the economy" - aka, spend, spend, spend, even if it means putting yourself into more debt than you can rightfully handle), sooner or later the growth has to slow, or even revert...

So, yep, people are suddenly scared to spend money, and RIGHTFULLY SO in my opinion, too... It really IS time to learn how to live within our means... But this isn't good for The Economy. So, businesses are set to be negatively impacted, people will be laid off, and unemployment will rise...

All yucky stuff, I don't deny that!

So, Kevin's solutio…

The downside of getting everything "done"...

At the start of another day, and this morning I'm feeling a bit, erm, ah... BORED!!!

Oh dear, have a very exciting day ahead of maybe vacuuming the floor, and otherwise trying to keep Bryn from climbing the walls. Don't have any money to get out anywhere. So staying home is really my only option.

I might even go to BaBs tomorrow, even though I know it's going to exhaust me. Yet another day of staring at these walls will drive me insane, I think...

There is a local ABA meeting for expectant mums on Thursday, but I'm a bit too shy to take myself off to that without knowing I'm going to know someone there - I do need to re-subscribe to the aBA though, so might do that online...

Friday is the expo, whoo hoo! I'm very excited about going to that!!!

Sleepy today...

I'm paying for not having gone to sleep earlier last night, LOL. Yawning away, and would love to just curl up in bed! It's days like today that I wish Bryn would take a nap, LOL!

Anyway, so as not to completely succumb to the lethargy, I thought I might set myself a couple of tasks today and maybe get the juices flowing and see if I can put a stop to the yawning...

Tidy up the living areasDo the dishesVaccuum throughoutPut away clean laundryDo baby laundry (let's test that superstiticious laundry theory, shall we!)I also did a load of my own laundry...

Not too bad, didn't manage the vacuuming, but have to leave something for tomorrow, hahaha, besides which my lower back/cocyz area is stiff and sore atm...

Finding it hard to keep an appetite today. Had a good breaky - 4 slices of toast with sliced banana on top. Then had half a punnet of prune and a glass of Coke for lunch at about 3.30pm, LOL (I know, you're all going YUCK, prunes with coke, hahaha, prune were a re…

It's hot tonight...

I should be asleep, but it's hot tonight, our first hot night of the season!

Without looking I know my ticker has ticked over to 4 days left.

Imagine that!

It's funny, I feel like I should be more excited, rofl. But I'm feeling very relaxed about it all of a sudden. As another wise pg woman said yesterday, there seems to be a change in the air. Maybe it's the impending full moon! The celestial sign of all things ripening to their fullest potential... That knowledge that this baby will be here soon, no matter what...

I still catch myself feeling like that will happen to someone else, not me. That I'm waiting for someone else to have a baby, not waiting on my own labour to start. I catch my breath when I think about the fact that it's actually ME who will be going into labour, and giving birth... It just doesn't seem real, rofl. It certainly doesn't seem like something that could happen any time, even though time is running down at a rate of knots …

39 weeks!!!

Wow!

Bubs was moving around like crazy all day yesterday. Haven't had that much movement in one day in weeks!

Heard a very sad and strange anecdote yesterday. A friend had recently attended a birth at my local hospital. The mum had a natural labour and birthed her baby on all fours on the floor with her two small children milling about. Everyone was so happy, and then this friend looks up and sees one of the hospital midwives standing quietly in the corner of the room, weeping.

So, she goes over to the midwife and asks if everything is ok, and the midwife says everything is ok, she just doesn't get to see birth very often. My friend asks if the midwife works in the special care unit of the hospital (thinking she mustn't attend births often), but no, apparently the midwife worked in the labour rooms!

Natural birth is becoming such a rare event in this hospital that this midwife was overwhelmed to actually be priveledged enough to witness it in her chosen career as a midwi…

Intermission... A break from regular programming...

I guess it doesn't take much these days...

Struggling not to feel depressed today...

Very sore hips overnight made turning over in bed excruiatingly painful. This has been building for a week, but I guess with the emotional upheaval of yesterday afternoon, I just didn't feel up to viewing it as a temporary, rather short term inconvenience...

Am going to try and distract myself with other birth preps today, and get back on track with the positive mindset I had going before I became all self-conscious about hoping for this baby to be the exception and come on time.

Philosophically, I can put this down to the precarious nature of being nearly 39 weeks pregnant and having hormones rushing through my body, and wanting to meet my baby but also being a bit anxious about the whole prospect of parenting four children and going back to that baby and a toddler stage - which I didn't deal with so well the last time I was there (with Erik and Luey)...

But, on reflection, the truth is that I feel like I paid my dues with Erik and Bryn,…

Just a little annoyed!

Well, it seems my talk of prelabour is getting back to my wonderful midwife via people other than myself. Twice now I've heard of people "filling my midwife in" on what's happening with me, and what annoys me about that is that I'm not actually trying to keep anything from my midwife, I'm just not wanting to bother the poor woman with my own little excitements about my body doing it's thing slowly but surely unless I feel it worth putting her on alert. My midwife is a busy woman with other clients as well as a host of other activities, and just life, to get on with and had I started emailing and calling her with even prelabour niggle, starting two weeks ago or more, then by now she'd probably think I was completely neurotic.

Still and all, *I* like to obsess about these things amongst those of you who are interested in listening to me rambling on, because it's all part of the fun, feeling all the contractions and wondering when things might final…

Down to single digits...

You knew I was going to point that out, right?

Well, a few months ago, I worked out that if all my births were going to work out to an "average" of 40 weeks gestations, then I'd need to have this baby today... Erik was born, thanks to an induction, at 42 weeks even, then Luey was induced(by ARM only) at 40 weeks and 4 days. Bryn arrived under his own steam at 41 weeks and 5 days, and so to bring me back to 40 weeks this one would have to be born at 38 weeks and 4 days...

I highly doubt today will be the day, rofl, but I'm open to it, if it were to happen...

Keeping in mind that my longest labour - Erik's properly induced one - took 8 hours, I could quite easily fit birthing a baby into today.

It dawned on my last night, that my hospital records for Bryn's birth might actually state that Bryn's labour was 2.5 hours long, as a lot of hospitals seem to have the habit of counting labour from when you walk through their doors, rather than when you state you went…

Belly art...

I thought I´d post a couple of pics of the wonderful piece of belly art Jayne did for me on Saturday at my Blessingway - courtesy of Jen's Iphone!


Milestones coming thick and fast now...

As of today, I can officially say, "This baby is due at the end of next week!"

As of Wednesday, I can say, "This baby is due in less than 10 days time!"

As of Friday, I can say, "This baby is due in a week's time!"

It's all exciting...

Last night I had about 1/2 a dozen good contractions, including a couple with the baby's head being shoved into my pelvis - LOTS of pressure. Lots of BHs in between, too. Nothing to keep me awake, mind you...

Needed to get to the shops today to get raspberry leaf tablets and epsom salts, and wanted to get some cotton yarn to try out a crocheted beanie for the baby (because this baby doesn't have enough hats, hahaha). The weather is crappy though, so none of that is going to happen today, Will have to get Dave to get the epsom salts, at least, because I definitely need those.

Other than that, I guess I'll just potter around the house...

38 weeks....

Well, this last week has been a tough one emotionally. Had to deal with a lot of demons, I think... I say, 'I think', because I´m not sure which demons or if I actually dealt with them. I know it has something to do with birth and feeling safe and needing control everything and surrendering and just having faith that everything will turn out.

A good friend has been through a lot more than me wrt these things, and has helped put my fears and whatnot into perspective, too - I'm sure she doesn't even realise she's done this for me, LOL...

I might have said, "two weeks to go now", except that last night I had a distinct and clear dream that today would be the beginning of my 41st weeks, not my 38th, and I was feeling kind of sheepish about thinking I would possibly go earlier. I was even feeling ok at the prospect of heading towards 42 weeks and having that Scorpio baby that Lucy said wouldn't be ideal. So, maybe I have another month to go...

Today is t…

I don´t know what´s wrong with me today :(...

I woke up this morning and my strongest urge was to pull everything out of the bottom of the wardrobe, crawl in there, close the doors and just hide in the darkness.

I'm feeling overwhelmed with anxiety atm, nothing specific, just lots of little things...

how others perceive me, especially people close to me...why on earth I'd want to bring another baby into this world when I'm finding it so hard to cope with the three I have on an emotional level (yes, it's the holidays)...whether I actually really want another baby right now? Yes, ludicrous, I know, but every day I can think of three good reasons why today would be a good day NOT to have a baby, and this morning I found myself actively willing away BH...am I my own worst enemy? I mean seriously, I'm so driven by my desires but then I can't cope with them, I compulsively take on more than I can handle in basically every aspect of my life and then I put too much pressure on other people to take up the slack, an…