Saturday, February 28, 2009

Feeling better... and OMFG, what WOULD they do without me???

Today I've surfaced...

That is, the antibiotics have finally started doing their job and the pain has receded enough that panadeine is ACTUALLY being effective and so I'm able to notice more than just the haze of endless pain and the dire needs of my four month old (OMG, he's FOUR months old already, he's growing so fast, and so much of this precious time is being coloured by this stupid gall bladder of mine, it's just cruel!)...

I have to say, coming out of the haze hasn't been a pleasant experience...

I woke up to much bitching and whinging - and that was just Dave... Poor guy, I know he's had a lot on his mind, what with me being sick, him not being able to go to work on Friday and leave me with two kids, having to go for his first driving licence (OMG, AGAIN!!! Can you believe it!!! It finally happened, he DROVE!!! There should have been fireworks!!!)... But, sheesh man! I realised this morning that should the VERY UNLIKELY happen and I died during or after this operation, these boys of mine would be a MESS! I mean that both figuratively and quite frankly, literally as well.

The house was a shocker! There wasn't a clean dish to be had, the washing was competing with Mt Everest, and it looks like a toy tornado had barrelled through our loungeroom...

I'm afraid me being better wasn't a pleasant experience for my boys, big and small... I did a fair bit of yelling (ok, considering I hadn't done any in nearly a week, I'm sure I didn't surpass my weekly quota, just used up a big deal of it)... There was a fair bit of, "Do I have to tell you EACH and EVERY THING that needs to be done around here???" And, "Why am I the ONLY person who ever FINISHES a job around here - honestly the bin is ON THE WAY from the toilet to ANYWHERE in this house, so why is there a roll collection on the cistern???"

Look, I did make an effort to make up for my tyrade, we had a lovely round of Monopoly once the house resembled a home again (and not the squalor it was rapidly descending into)... Erik even won for the first time in the history of this family playing (it's only be a few weeks, but this is now a weekend tradition that we're all loving)...

You know, it's not until I'm incapacitated that we all realise just how much I do around here. Even though Dave and the big boys do A LOT, they really do need me to organise and supervise them, and to finish what they start (and so often don't manage to finish)... I've got to stop thinking that I don't do much around here, because evidentally, if I wasn't around, they WOULD live in squalor, and they'd be at each other's throats all the time as well...

LOL, hmmmm, I'm not shedding the best light on my family, am I? We're alright though, when the house is tidy and clean things tend to run very smoothly and we're all fairly nice to one another... Mostly...

New Tag Bog...

The rules..

1. Go to the section of your computer where you store all of your photos.


2. Select the 6th folder.


3. Select the 6th photo from that folder.


4. Post and explain about that picture.


5. Tag 6 other people



Ooops, nearly forgot to explain this photo. This is Bryn, obviously... He must have been about a year old, and sporting his then new dalmation Jamtots minky! Gosh I loved that cover!!! It has since been sold to someone else.

I tag...

Azure

Spiralmumma

Picklebums

Juniper

Ramamama

Kate's Ramble

Friday, February 27, 2009

Upright boy...

Ari, like most "younger siblings" is gungho about getting in there with his brother. If he could walk right now, he would! He LOVES to sit upright, but of course, I can't sit with him on my knee all the time...

So, I splurged and got him a Bumbo with a tray. I got it for a great price on ebay.

It arrived in the mail today and Ari gave it a whirl!


King Muck surveying his kingdom...



And with a tray, he can play!



And true to all child tradition, Bryn occupied himself with the box!!!

Thursday, February 26, 2009

Colourways...

Just noting today how similar Erik and Bryn and Luey and Ari are in colouring...




No-Man's land...

Ok, no one really wants to see a baby crying, but isn't he beautiful, even when he cries??? This isn't really a cry, this is "The Grizzle" and came at the end of a little photo shoot I was doing of him because, basically, he was bored having his picture taken and wanted to be picked up so he could survey his kingdom. His absolutely fave thing to do is be carried around the house so he can see stuff. The child would walk now, if he could, poor thing...



Oh, but look at this face, the hint of a smile in his eyes.


His eyes are no where near as dark as Erik's but Dave and I have noticed he has the same penetrating gaze. As if he's scanning your soul to make sure you're a good person...


I'm in a mild state of panic atm. I've been in pain for the past two days because of my gall bladder. I started taking antibiotics last night and am waiting for them to kick in, hopefully soon! Last night was horrendous, like New Years Eve. Part of me wants to go to the emergency department to get some morphine, but it's all too hard. I really need Dave there with me to hold my hand because I'm so so afraid of needles, but he needs to stay with the boys as well. Also, I can't really take Ari on my own because I'm not able to lift him to me for feeding when I'm on the morphine (partially due to the needle in my hand and partially due to being whoozy anyway). I can't leave him either because there is nothing for him to drink. I have 60mls of ebm in the fridge but that's it. I've seriously considered formula. I'm trying to tell myself it's ok, it's an emergency, it's not a permanent change over etc. but for so many years I've been so very anti formula for my kids, I'm just struggling with the idea of it, even as an emergency measure.

I actually don't feel like I'm thinking very clearly atm, I'm wholly driven by my emotions. Not wanting to leave Ari, not feeling able to care for him on my own, being in pain. It's all overwhelming. I'm not so sick that I don't have a choice, and I'm not well enough that I don't have to consider it, I'm in a no-man's land and it's torturing me...

Ari's awake, gtg...

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Crikey, I think I FINALLY see it!!!

For the past few weeks, all I've heard is how much Ari looks like Bryn, and for the life of me, I just could not see it! To me, Ari looks like Luey, not Bryn. Then tonight, I had reason to go through some old photobucket pics of Bryn as a baby, and all of a sudden I SAW IT!

Bryn...

Ari...


Bryn...


Ari...


Geez, my memory's not so good though, hey...

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Never let the details get in the way a proud moment...

Luey came home from school absolutely BEAMING the other day...

L: Mum, guess what! I've got a RESPONSIBILITY at school!!!

Me:: Really?

L: Yes! I'm the kidsnet monitor!

Me: WOw, a lidsnet monitor!

L: It's a big RESONSIBILITY!!!

Me: And what does the kidsnet monitor do?

L: ...um... I don't know (goes to his room still beaming with pride)

Thursday, February 19, 2009

My first ever operation...

Some time in the next 6 weeks...

Gosh, I REALLY hope it's not IN six weeks time, because I have non-transferrable tickets booked to fly to Adelaide in 6 weeks time! Rofl, Murphy's Law and all that, hey?

So, went to the gastroenterology outpatients clinic for assessment this morning. The lovely Jen took Erik and Luey to school and then took Bryn to her place for a play. Thank goodness Bryn is so very comfortable with her, it was the third day in a row he'd spent time with people other than Dave or myself - Erik and Luey NEVER spent this much time away from us, it's strange to think that Bryn isn't at all bothered by it, then again he's always with someone he knows well, he's really experiencing the "village life" that I'd hoped for all my children... I digress...

Saw a young woman doctor who was lovely. She seemed to really listen when I told her about my mum having all this happen last year and having her gall bladder out in October. She said she'd organise to put me on the waiting list and told me they can't prioritise with regard to social circumstance, only medical need. However, when she got back from consulting with her boss/supervisor/superior, she said I'd been triaged as "category 1", so the surgery would most like happen IN the next siz weeks some time.

The next step will be to get a call from them regarding a pre-op admission appointment. I guess that's when they'll take blood for typing and I'll talk to the anaesthesiologist (???). Argh! Of course, now I have to face all my fears about needles. I such a wuss. Going "under" doesn't bother me except for the needles. If they could sedate me using the mask they use for kids, I'd be fine. If they didn't have to do bloods, I'd be fine. The operation itself doesn't bother me, just the needles, rofl...

One funny... The doctor asked me if I was studying medicine, LOL! Why? Well because I was using all these medical terms, ahahaha! Medical terms like; swelling, distention, acute pain hahaha! Honestly, I don't think I used any kind of ACTUAL medical terminology. I was just using normal words!!!

Anyway, I'm happy happy now. I've called my mum to let her know so we can organise for her to be here and visit (and I think we're both more excited that she gets a chance to just visit, hahaha)... They'll give me about 2 weeks notice, maybe only 1 week if someone opts out of their surgery, but that's plenty of time to get mum on a flight.

It feels so good to be moving FORWARD on this, even if I am now having to prepare mentally and otherwise for surgery...

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

I had a feeling...

When Erik was a baby, he quickly developed very precise fine motor skills. His hand-eye co-ordination was amazing to say the least. His gross motor skills, on the other hand lacked finess. When he was four and Luey was 2, Luey took great pleasure in flaunting his ability to somersault in front of the less well co-ordinated Erik.

When the boys started school a couple of years ago, after the first term, the PE teacher sent home a mini dvd of each child going through their paces with several activities that had been practiced in PE. These included catching a bean bag, throwing a bean bag over arm, hitting a tennis ball with a racket, kicking football and so on. Luey should a natural ability to co-ordinate himself to do these things, but Erik looked all goofy and un-co with his long calf-like limbs...

Then, on the DVD, the boys had to run across the synth grass. Oh my, even in that short a run, Erik fell EASILY into a great rhythm and motion. When I saw that, I said to Dave, "Erik is a natural runner, a real NATURAL"...

Since then, Erik has learned to roller blade, and again, he's a natural. He just seems to know exactly how to move his arms and legs and torso in unison for the most effective and efficient motion.

Well, this year, he's in grade 3 and from grade 3 at our school, all the kids participate in a sports carnival. It's all athletics; running; diskus; hop, step and jump; long jump; high jump and so on... Erik was quite excited about it, and was telling me how he expected to come second in the 100 metres and also high up in a longer run. I affirmed him, saying, I believed he would do very well because he's very good at running.

So today he comes home, and is absolutely GLOWING. He'd come first in the 200 metres! His house (blue - I still don't understand why the houses don't have more imaginative names, especially considering the school is named so well) came second overall. He was so proud of his effort!

Check out the puffed out chest!

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Tuesday Goodness...

Today was a fun day!

I went for a power talk (or rather power talk that also involved walking, LOL) with Jen. Then came back settled Ari for a sleep and took a nice looooong (yes, I know there are water restrictions but our household uses far less water than the average 3 person household anyway) shower - O M Goodness, running water should be sold as a natural healer! I always feel so good after a dousing with negative ions!

Then at lunchtime Jayne brought Bryn home from creche, and dropped Sienna off for a playdate while she went off to her course for a few hours.

Bryn and Sienna just get along so well! It makes my day so much easier to have S here! They hung out, ate popcorn, jumped on the trampoline, watched a couple of cartoons, and showed me how they could hop on one foot (Sienna can, and Bryn can with the support of the coffee table, LOL)...

Then they showed me their best "lizard faces", LOL...


After that we all practice winking. I'm totally hopeless at winking, and Bryn (who has a black belt in winking) knows this, so I think it was mostly just an exercise in laughing at mum as she contorted her face in vain...




Then Bryn showed us "cross eyes"! I have to say, I've never seen a child do cross eyes like this (looking up), I've only ever seen child do it looking down their nose with their lids almost completely closed... Funny boy!


Then Rohana, who had picked my boys up from school, dropped by with her two lovelies so they could spend 1.5hrs here with Bryn and Sienna. The kids got into some drawing and "stickering" amongst other things...


Jayne picked Sienna up at 5.3o, then Dave came home at 5.40, and Rohana brought our big boys home at 6.10pm... Dave and I had a bit of a laugh between Jayne picking Sienna up and Rohana bringing our boys home, because we actually had four kids in the house, as per usual for that hour of the day, but the house was eerily Q U I E T as Rohana's kids and Bryn played quietly and Ari lolled about on my back... Once our boys got home, that soon changed though!

The boys came home with treasures from their pottery and drama classes!

Luey brought home a pot with a lid that he'd made and glazed in pottery!


Ok, I'm his mum, but HELLO, the boys is a natural!!! The lid is decorated with melted glass! This photo doesn't do it justice! I'm so proud to have my very first pot from my boy! My first real, lasting momento of his childhood!


And Erik brought home his first ever SCRIPT! He's so excited! He's playing the HEART THROB!!! That's my boy! So, he had to read me some of his lines!


And to finish the day off... This picture is actually from the weekend, because I couldn't catch one from tonight, but Bryn has mastered the use of a knife and fork! Erik and Luey were much older before they figured these things out, but as usual for a younger sibling, Bryn is in a huge hurry to catch up... He's growing up so fast!


Tuesdays are promising to be busy and wonderful!

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Ok, I don't need a lecture...

about not going to the dentist regularly...

I just broke another tooth... That makes three, three in the last 18 months! Before that, I'd broken 2 other teeth over the span of a few years and had each extracted in turn...

What is happening to me???

It's getting kind of scary!

My gall bladder, then mastitis, now a broken tooth, and that after a week of hay fever symptoms (and I NEVER have hayfever)...

This last broken tooth is closer to the front of my mouth, as well, it's the second molar from the front on my top right hand side - the back has broken off the tooth. I can't afford to get the tooth fixed, so extraction would be my only option.

Why do my teeth keep breaking though, that's what I don't understand...

Feeling a little under siege atm (Ari is also quite sick with a head cold, poor little baby)...

I need a hug...

Saturday, February 14, 2009

The things they say...

Leah likes to keep count of the various missayings of the lovely Miss A, and I don't usually do this, but the other day, I realised Bryn is consistently transporting "n"s found in the middle of words at the end of the word he's saying...

For example, "poisonous" becomes "poisedon", everything he doesn't like the taste of is met with a, "I tan't eat that, mommy, it's poisedon!"

And the other day, he was telling me how at creche he shared an "oragen" with another child (that would be be an orange to regular folks)...

For those of you wondering when your three and four year olds will stop TALKING SO MUCH, let me tell you that, at 9.5, Erik is still suffering the dreaded "verbal diarrhea". Mind you, now the conversations are getting FAR more interesting. Today it was, "Dad, what's enlightenment?" Cool, answer that Dave, in 25 words or less (i.e. before his eyes glaze over and he asks you if it's possible to dream you're a Pokemon and then wake up with Pokemon powers)...

Friday, February 13, 2009

We meet again, Lads!

Leah and Kate brought their gorgeous little boyos over for a Great '08 Boys reunion - and, of course, we had to have out Bonds photo shoot moment...


From left to right, Little, Little Little, and Tiny - aka; Tom, Owen and Ari. There's 6 weeks difference between Tom and Owen, and Ari (O and A being two days apart).






Oops!


Meanwhile, Bryn decided to get nekkid in the yard. The more modest Emma thought taking her shoes off was plenty...


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And here is Bryn in his waistcoat of many colours! He got this for Christmas, but I hadn't had a chance get a shot of him in it until a couple of days ago... Isn't it perty?


Bits and Bobs...

Much like my week, this blog entry is going to be a bit bitsy and scattered - so fair warning...

Health

One week to go until I get assessed by the outpatient clinic for my gall bladder. I'm fed up and nervous. Fed up worrying about this, eating a virtually vegan diet (if I ever doubted my compatibility with veganism, I've now truly discovered that I'm incompatible with that lifestyle - certainly the fat free variety of that lifestyle)... I REALLY want this gall bladder out so that I can stop worrying about triggering another attack. I'm nervous because I keep thinking the Drs will tell me it's going to be a long wait and there is nothing they can do to expedite the surgery. I'm also just plain nervous about having surgery.

I've been feeling fairly depressed and "little" this week, which is probably mostly just about the diet and about all the rubbish dealing with the gall bladder attack and then the mastitis. Watching endless footage about the bushfires hasn't helped at all.

I've also been suffering with some sort of allergy or hayfever. I've had itchy, bloodshot eyes, migraine headaches, and now a sniffy, itching nose.

And oddly enough, I have this need to CRY and I just can't! It's very frustrating, goodness knows I've seen enough misery this week to trigger a big cry, but I CAN'T, and I don't know why... Meanwhile the pressure builds...

Bryn

Bryn got to go back to his old Tuesday creche timeslot, which he was happy about. He wasn't happy when I picked him up, there had been a mix up with the lunch boxes which normally wouldn't phase him too much, but on top of that Dave had put his sandwich in Luey's lunchbox and Luey's sandwich in his lunchbox, and he was NOT happy about being lumbered with a jam sandwich when he'd asked for honey... His reaction, though, was fairly dramatic for him, and to me it reflects his general state of unease that seems to have built since Ari's arrival. We're seeing a lot more of the unhappy toddler in Bryn in the past three months or so. We struggle with our own reactions to his behaviour, trying very hard not to slip into negative patterns with him, but finding ourselves slipping all the same. That alone make me want to cry (and yet I can't)... Tonight, Bryn has been in and out of night terrors/bad dreams...

It has been a time of change for him in other ways. He's been sleeping in his own bed for 10 days, and that, in itself seems to be going really well (he hasn't had any night terrors or bad dreams before tonight)...

As well as this, he also started a second period of creche on Wednesday at a different neighbourhood house. At first he didn't want to go, even though I was going to be across the hallway, helping to facilitate BaBs. However, I managed to convince him that in order to get into the playground which is located at the neighbourhood house, he would need to participate in the creche. That seemed to motivate him. When I picked him up two hours later he reported that he'd had a great time and that creche was "cool"...

I worry a lot about how Bryn is fairing with all this change, and how our interactions with him are impacting on him. I see so many of the things I "got wrong" with Erik and Luey and I just don't want to repeat those things with Bryn. Unfortunately, sometimes I find myself falling into old patterns all too quickly and it's quite an effort to stop, think, and redo the situation...

Studies

I'm generally feeling quite stressed about finishing my thesis this year. We're already 6 weeks into this year and I haven't done a thing. Well, that's not completely true, I did sort out my materials cupboard and located the precise for my thesis, but that's all I've done. I feel like, if I could just get over the hump of starting, I'd be ok. The thing is, during the day I'm running from one thing to another (usually dealing with either Bryn or Ari, or picking the boys up from school, doing shopping, and a million other things besides), and then at night - when I've promised myself I'd get to it - I'm exhausted.

I've got to figure out some sort of better plan than that...

And now, I have to get off here and do other stuff!

Monday, February 09, 2009

2 pix, by and of Luey...

There is so much sadness around, atm, with the Victorian and New South Welsh fire storms, I've felt very overwhelmed by it all, and just don't know what to say...

So, rather than blogging about that, I thought I'd focus on the things that make my heart sing atm.



Luey took this photo of Ari feeding yesterday, I thought it was a lovely photo and a perspective I never get to see. I don't have a lot of pictures of my babies feeding from an outside perspective because Dave won't really take them and I never feel comfortable asking any one else, so now having Luey or Erik to take these photos is great, and this photo, taken by Luey is lovely!



Then I took this photo this morning of Luey reading nursery rhymes to Ari in our bed. Every morning after Ari and I have woken up and I've fed Ari, I get up to go to the loo, and Luey comes into the bedroom and chats with Ari for a while before I change his nappy and bring him out to the loungeroom. It's their very special time together, and this morning Luey decided to read to Ari, so I had to have a picture of it!

Saturday, February 07, 2009




Ari has started the long, slow journey of teething (I say long and slow because for my boys it seems to take about 5 months from first signs to an actual tooth being sighted and felt)...

Unlike Luey and Bryn, Ari seems to be unsettled a bit by his budding teeth moving around in his gums and almost as soon as the dribbling started (1.5 weeks ago), so did the grizzling "hold me upright all day long" mood. When I can carry him, it's all good, and when he's asleep, it's all good, but as I spend a good deal of my day seated in front of this computer or at the dining table, doing boring work that happens much more efficiently if I have two hands free.

So, I'd heard good things about the analgesic affect of amber necklaces on teething infants and thought I might give it a try (quite a departure from my usual coping method - panadol)... The necklace arrived yesterday and despite my own scepticsm, Ari does seem more settled. I'm hopeful that this is not just coincidence...

Anyway, he does look cute in it either way...

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

Lots of little goodies this week!

Well, February really DOES seem to be kicking off to a more positive note than January did (for me, personally)...

So, here are a few of lovely things that have revealed themselves just since Monday...

  • Bryn has gotten a place in his old Tuesday creche session, which means he gets to see Sienna at creche again (he is soooo happy!).
  • Bryn also got a creche placement at the creche in the neighbourhood house where we run BaBs on Wednesday, so that I can take him with me and he won't be bored silly and disruptive (and Dave doesn't have take Wednesday off when there is work available).
  • Bryn is sleeping in his own bed (and all night long too!), so Dave is back in our bed with Ari and myself!
  • Erik and Luey are going to drama and pottery classes (respectively) AND someone is picking them up from school, taking them there and then bringing them back home again for me!
  • Erik's best friend has also enrolled in the same drama class (did so after finding out Erik was doing it).
  • There is a possibility that Uncle Kev might be giving us another big chunk of money in the next few weeks.
  • Dave's parents are paying for him to do 10 drivers lessons (as a start), woot!
  • Our gas bill arrived - $35 in CREDIT (that's the second bill in the last 10 days, both in credit), so my regular installment strategi is working, YaY!
  • We got a letter telling us that we can claim back 50% of school costs for each school child, this includes internet connection!
  • Mum finished her Masters Thesis novel, and read the first chapter to me over the phone, and two of the characters in that first chapter are two little boys named "Erik" and "Luey"!!!
Lots of little things to smile about at the moment!

Monday, February 02, 2009

And here we go again...

O M Goodness, the holidays are OVER!!! Seven weeks ago, I was wondering how I was going to cope, and now we're at the other end, and I'm beginning to wonder how I'll cope with being on the go (go, GO!) again!!!

Today saw Dave taking Bryn to his first Monday session at creche before heading off to work. Bryn coped ok, despite his beloved Sienna not being there. Apparently, he did seem to be looking around for her a bit before Dave had to leave. Then around an hour into the session he seemed a bit sad and Monica noticed a tear rolling down his cheek, so she went over and jollied him a bit and got to go outside and play and then he seemed happy (so good to have people I can trust there!)... Next week Jayne will be filling in, so he'll have someone else he knows while he's getting to know the new group of kids.

While Dave and Bryn were out, Erik, Luey and I tidied the house and I did the dishes. Then the boys and Ari and I went to the shopping centre to get a couple of pairs of shorts for school. The boys also got new insulated lunch boxes and drink bottles (with ice packs).

Then we picked up Bryn, who was happily drawing when we got there. Then back home, lunch, and then Joy, Jen and Tabs came over for a BaBs planning meeting.

Once they left. I organised a quick tupperware order to be delivered on Wednesday (sandwich keepers for school lunches - I used to own 5, but can only find 2??? We must have a tupper imp in out house...)

Then a call from another friend which saw me organising for Erik to do drama this term (yay, I've been wanting to organise extra-curricula activities for the boys since the middle of last year, but it's so hard to get them to and from activities with Bryn (and now Ari) in tow, but R and I have worked out a barter whereby she does the ferrying and I watch her kids while she teaches mine), Luey will be doing pottery. I'm very excited for them, I hope they have a ball!

Tonight has been all about getting school clothes, school bags and what not set out. We had to label Erik's books, and he got a pencil case with textas, colour pencils, leads, pens (!!!), scissors, erasers, a ruler and a glue stick (this stuff goes into a class pool for the junior school, but now Erik is in middle primary, woot!)...

Tomorrow will see all of us hiking to school to check out the new classrooms and new teachers, and then I have to pick up a breast pump from a school mum friend, who just happens to be a breastfeeding counsellor. Then I'll retrieve the boys from school, take them to their Xcurricula activities and then head home with Bryn and Ari - Dave will pick them up on the way home from work.

Wednesday is back to BaBs.

Thursday might be a morning walk and then I should probably at least LOOK at the precise for my novel (argh!!!)

The days are filling up so quickly!

Sunday, February 01, 2009

TV Tragic...

Ratings season starts again tomorrow, and I have to tell you that TiVo is back on my radar!!!

I'm excited to see "Desperate Housewives" and "Brothers and Sisters" back in their regular time slot, but "Eli Stone" has been shunted to a 10.30 time slot, and "Dirty Sexy Money" will be on at 11.30pm! I mean, it's bad enough that we're a season and a half behind for ER, but they put that on at or after midnight!!!

As a mum with young children, I can't be sitting up in the wee hours to follow the storylines! And what's more, the prime time slots are filled with tripe like The Biggest Loser, ergh *vomit*...

So, yeah, I'm going to have to budget myself a Mother's Day present of TiVo, I think...

To all the people I can't stand...

If you think the title applies to you, feel free to watch this video...

Otherwise, I IMPLORE YOU NOT TO!

Celebrating the good of January!

Well, by the clock it's now February, and I've been thinking how January 2009 was a bit tough, tougher than I anticipated it being - I was so very much looking forward to this year starting with so many plans and things I wanted to get on with, and then I had a few hurdles throw in my direction and it's so easy to want to get all negative and "can't do"... So, I thought that for the beginning of February, I'd have a little reflection on how I was blessed in the midst of it all in January!

  • Thanks to mum having been through her gall bladder attack and operation in the last half of 2008, when I had my attack on New Year's Eve and going into New Year's Day, I had a fairly good idea what it was. So, even though the doctor in the emergency department didn't believe I was having a gall bladder attack, I knew to go to a GP and insist on an ultrasound. The ultrasound revealed my inflamed gall bladder that I might otherwise have gone on to ignore (putting my health in further jeopardy)...
  • When the subdermal inflammation "grew" in my right breast, even though it was very sore, and later turned out to be mastitis, I was very lucky that the blocked duct was so close to the surface of my breast that it was able to "release" out of one of my pours and resolve itself. As well as that, I didn't suffer the high temps and body aches so many women suffer with mastitis, AND it was my first ever bought of mastitis in 9.5 years of breastfeeding!
  • Because of the gall bladder issues, I've been FORCED to improve my diet, even though I'm not eating any animal products, I'm now *much more conscientiously* eating fresh fruit and vegies and this has resulted in weight loss (which was one of my goals anyway)...
  • It was very fortuitous that because of the impending heat, a friend offered to have a large get together I was going to host, at her house, where there was more room for people inside in a/c coolness, because the day I was set to have all these people over, we had no electricity, so the boys and I had somewhere cool to retreat to while waiting for our electricity to come back on AND we had great company as well!
  • The holidays have been pretty good, with the big boys getting to do swimming classes for a week thanks to K.rudd's stimulus package, as well as having fun equipment to amuse them in the yard (again thanks to Uncle Kev).
  • Ari really settled into the "outside the womb" life, and has become a very relaxed little mini buddha :).
  • Dave has had a lot of time off during these holidays and has been home to offer practical and emotional help - particularly wonderful during this last, hot, trying week! He's also finally "got it" wrt getting his licence and is very close to booking his first 5 lessons, yay!
So, in february, the boys will go back to school, and Bryn and Ari and I will get back into our "routine". I will see a specialist about getting my gall bladder out (hopefully very soon - I'm going to lay it on *thick* wrt needing something done sooner rather than later). I'm going to become well aquainted with a breast pump while I prepare for said appointment and hopefully for surgery. I will also be starting work on my thesis (something that ended up not getting off the ground in January). It's going to be a month of changes. Good changes!

Teenagers and the failing parent...