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When regular toys get boring, a Boy can always play with his bros toes...

Wonder what my chances are...

of writing 19 000 this weekend?

Probably not very good, hey?

I guess it's just been one of those weeks. Baby not well, mama not well, four appointments as well as a family crisis - and then there are the school and creche drop-offs and pick ups, the bane of most parents lives, LOL!

This is why I do things in a kind of all or nothing way, LOL. I have a tendency to throw myself headlong into committments, and it's usually with the thought in mind that somewhere along the line I'll have to scale right back...

If I had written 500 words a day last week, I'd have managed a quarter of what I got through. I'd have 2500 under my belt right now, and all the stress this week would have come along anyway (ie. it's not a result of throwing myself into writing last week)... Instead, I got 10 000 words written and even though I haven't written more than 1000 this week, I'm not as stressed because having 11 000 down is not so bad really (mum only had 13 000 down unti…

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A few things...

FIL is in a bad way. He doesn't know it yet, D and MIL are breaking the news to him in the morning. Basically, he's just winding down with old age, but an infection developed in his foot, and they've been struggling to get it to heal, and then on top of that his big toe and the one next to it are turning black which means his circulation is really bad in his foot. They obvious treatment now is to amputate the foot, but because he is so very frail, the operation could put his life at risk. To leave the foot would be disasterous though > necrosis > infection > blood poisoning > death. Once the foot is amputated MIL will not be able to care for him at home (he is so frail now, he's bed ridden most of the day, and needs assistance to use the commode in his room), so it would mean moving him permanently to a hospis or such like. It's just all too sad to think about :(...I'm experiencing constant headaches from eye strain. Today I…

Seven Months Old...

Ari has been through so many changes in just this last week, it's like he knew he was about to turn seven months old. Then there's the old cliche of "Where did those seven months go?" It's a cliche for a reason though, isn't it. In the blink of an eye we've gone from, "Finally, he's here!" to "OMG, he's just said his first word and is mobile!"

Just three days ago, Ari figured out that he can get around by scooting on his bottom. This seems to be an afternoon activity. Each morning he wakes up and has forgotten he can do this, but by about 4pm, he remembers again. Funny little guy! When Luey did this, I was worried because I'd read all the studies that suggested babies who don't crawl will have left-right hemisphere intergration issues that will affect their language and math skills and their ability to communicate their emotions effectively (resulting in life long heighted stress levels)... Anyway, even though Lu…

Inspirations!

Been struggling this week with writing. Last week I went gangbusters, but this week having to deal with Ari's cold, then catching it myself (though I'm mostly in denial about it) has really slowed me down. As well as that, my eyes have been aching a lot lately - probably from too much intense iPhone time (I found this ACE mindmapping app, and a word finder game, and I'm a little hooked on mobile twittering as well)...

Anyway, then Tabs put me onto a blog of someone she knows casually who is participating in an "Every Day in May" challenge. This person, like me, is trying to write a novel of some description, and has set herself the challenge of writing between 500 and 1000 words every day (which is pretty much what I was hoping to do from the 4th of May, though closer to 1000 words a day at that stage)...

Loobylu originally got the idea from the French Toast Girl blog and I HIGHLY recommend going to that blog, scrolling to the bottom of the page and then slowly …

Brag of the day!

Here's Icarus sitting a foot in front of where I placed him down 30
minutes earlier. The boy is mobile! Bum shuffling mobile (like bro
Luey), but mobile all the same!Sent from my iPhone

Felt the need for some green...

I adore the free blog backgrounds site I stumbled upon several months ago (link up there in the left corner)... I like being able to change my blog look to suit my mood. This evening I've felt strongly in need of green.

Green is my HOME colour. It's the colour I turn to when I need to feel grounded. Jayne recently moved into a new house with the most magnificent green loungeroom. It's not a dull, watery green, but a vibrant, happy green and when I recently spent a wonderful evening there with some other women, the green of that room somehow fed my soul!

Her entry is sunshine yellow. I remember being five and adoring the colour yellow! Yellow was the colour of happy, and maybe when I was five I felt a need to be sorrounded by a lot of happy.

I know for many years I avoided the colour red. Red was the colour of angry, and I didn't like it. My mum liked to dress me in red (because it suits me), and I hated that. But not nearly as much as I hated Orange...

I don'…

I must be mad (ok, so you probably figured that out already)...

I reached my goal of 10 000 words for the week today. On Monday
morning when i started writing i already had a word count of 750 words
from the previous Monday, but all the same, over the last 4 days i've
written over 9000 words - i'm pretty impressed with myself, i have to
admit'My goal for this weekend is to get to 15 000 words because by the end
of the following weekend I want to have 30 000 words written.This afternoon after finishing off the first ten thousand, I was
feeling a little cocky and found myself thinking about when I finish
this degree and how I'll finishing qualify for a doctorate.That was the one thing that detracted from finishing my first Masters;
because I transferred from thesis to coursework after Luey was born
(because of PND), i didn't qualify to do a PhD. To me, it felt like i
had a Clayton's Masters (no offense to anyone else who has a
coursework Masters, this is just my neuroses speaking).So today i was daydreaming about …

How on earth???

I was listening to a writing podcast the other day and this writer was saying something about how one of his mentors had once told him that if someone told him that every good writer sits down between 8am and 12pm every day and punches out 5000 words and ENJOYS it, then they're LYING! This guy was saying that that was possibly true for most writers, that it's not really surprising that writer's find it hard to write because writers love words and like to use just the right words to express what they want to express and invoke the kinds of emotions they want to invoke... HOWEVER, in his particular case the above was in fact, TRUE. This writer honestly DOES sit down for 4 hours every day and writes 5000 words and ENJOYS his time writing...

What I want to know is HOW does he write 5000 words in four hours??? I've written NEARLY 5000 words, but it's taken me nearly 10 hours! Ok, so I'm sure he isn't pausing to breastfeed a six month old, or change a nappy, …

S.A.D. to say...

The forecast for the next near week goes something like, 19, 20, 20, 21, 21, 20... Apparently after that we'll have rain. This is where I have to admit that I'm honestly NOT looking forward to it raining. In a week's time, or ever!

We haven't had much of an Indian Summer this year. There was a cold snap mid-March and since then it's been mostly cool to down-right freezing, and I've suffered for it.

I felt so very UP today! Why? Because there was sun and yes, even warmth! I felt like a got quite a lot done (no, not housework, but other useful stuff, yk, like WRITING)... For once in a long while, I didn't feel like crawling into bed with a big, never-ending mug of hot chocolate...

If re-incarnation, as hindus see it, is real, then I swear I must have been a bear in my past life. Every Autumn, all I want to do, is find a nice dark, warm cave, crawl in, shut it off from the inside and sleep, sleep, sleep... The daylight of Winter feels harsh to me, it…

Things I know...

Pinching this idea from Shae's blog

Noisy, emotional, chaotic families are still loving, close knitted families...The crunchiness of red-gold Autumn leaves under foot makes 9 degree mornings worthwhile...Buying more technology can sometimes cause you to interact less with technology and more with real people...If it's male and it's fidgety and cranky for days on end despite having all his needs met, it's probably processing a massive POO!I will always WANT to work on my thesis when I physically can't and then when I can, I'll blog instead...

I am looking forward to having $5000...

Because that is what I need to get my left eye straigtened...

When to the Eye Specialist yesterday to find out if I could the strabimus in my left eye fixed (I don't know if that sentence is grammatically correct or not - is "strabimus" a verb or a noun?)...

I was put through my paces look hard left and hard right, up and down, reading charts, having drops, going blind (thanks to the sedative on my eye balls, LOL)... Anyway, I have a 22 dgree outward turn on my left eye (so, to all those people who insist it's barely noticeable, rofl, thanks but don't worry about being polite anymore, hahaha)...

The Dr said he could definitely fix it. He said that due to the degree of turning, he couldn't guarantee that it wouldn't turn back out in 5 year or 25 years, and that he had the best results with turns of 17 degrees or less, but yes, it could be fix and as it had taken over 30 years for me to really notice a turn at all, then there was a very good chance of it sti…

Cafe Ari!

The Crèche Crew

Too cute, aren't they?

That strange floaty, disconnected feeling is back...

Ok, tell me I'm not the only one who experiences this...

It's been happening again, just over the past couple of days. I get this odd sensation of things floating in space. Like, I might see words on my screen and wonder what's holding them in place. Why aren't they tumbling off the screen. Why am I not collapsing in a heap at the foot of my chair, here?

When I say floating. I don't mean like bobbing about in the sea, or on pillows of invisible hot air. I just mean that things, people, objects are able to somehow defy gravity, and at the same time not be so light and disjointed that they just fly apart...

Ok, so the feeling is very hard to describe.

I've kind of been aware for many years now, that everything, EVERYTHING around us, and even ourselves, is just made up of atoms, and within atoms, neurons and other small particles. That these itsy bitsy particles just float about together in clusters that form dense and less dense objects, but that REALLY, there…

First Mother's Day with All My Children!

I'm rockin' Mother's Day today! It's been the best one ever!

I realised this morning that as Dave and I have now completed our little family, this is my first ever Mother's Day with all my children present! It's been a gorgeous sunny day, too!

I had a little bit of a sleep in this morning, and wasn't woken to arguing (you have no idea how rare that is!)... Then coffee and pressies and homemade cards! From Erik I got a potted flower (Chrysanthemum sp?) in pink, and a book of vouchers he'd made that I can "cash in" some time in the next year! From Luey I got another potted flower (it was all they were selling at the Mother's Day stall at school), in white this time, and a card. From all the boys together I got a lovely bottle of Moscato, which I will be enjoying some time very soon! And from Dave (even though I'm NOT his mother), I got a web cam with inbuilt microphone by Logitech, which I'm looking forward to trying out!





Erik an…

I look like cool!

So sayeth Bryn!

Thoughts about Mother's Day...

Since Ari was born last October, I've really felt very ok about having four boys, and only ever having four boys. Four sons.

For some reason, the impending Mother's Day has just brought up some sadness over never having a daughter. The two might not seem related at all, but then again, my brain is notorious for relating things other people would NEVER consider to have any relationship to one another.

It's the thing about being a mother. I didn't appreciate my mum much growing up. Being the idealist I'm prone to being, she (in her faulty human state) never managed to live up to my ideal of what a mother SHOULD be. You know what I mean, right? That always patient, always available, always anticipating her child's next need or want Goddess that was aspired to in the 50s and depicted in fiction...

Mum always said, "I can't wait until you have kids, then you'll understand!"

Yeah, how many mums have said that, do you think? In fact, how many of u…

Thoughts on self-esteem...

Was listening to a podcast yesterday about procrastinating. It's something I do quite a bit. Anyway, the lady talking about why we do it, suggested it is mostly related to emotional baggage. In some way the procrastinator benefits from procrastinating - in some way it works for them. Well, that's nothing I haven't heard before, really, but then she suggested people do an exercise to try and tweeze out WHY they might be procrastinating... Basically, you list all the things you think might happen if you didn't procrastinate; like, what are you concerned might happen, no matter how childish it sounds (because often our reasons for procrastinating relate back to experiences in our childhood), and also (I think) how does procrastinating benefit you...

Well, anyway, I had a think about and basically...

I procrastinate for several reasons:

Generally

- I'm afraid that if I get on with doing the stuff I have to do, I'm going to miss out on stuff going on online with my…

Forever on the move

Every time I turn around, one of the boys is lugging Ari around. It's
hilarious to me how big he looks against Luey!They grab any opportunity to haul him about - the number of times he's
been "crying" (so quietly that I can't hear him despite him sitting
right at my feet), you'd think THEY were the attached parent!I sure do love having older kids!

Children of the Corn...

I'm posting this for Kate, in response to this post.

Kate, this is my brother and I aged 9 months and 2.5 years respectively... As you can see, very very blonde. Very much like many kids in Iceland. In fact, looking through the Icelandic parents forum (Barnaland) is like watching Children of the Corn, LOL...

6pm at our house

Boy builds robot

Apparently, this is General Grevious, of Star Wars fame...

Time to get real, I guess...

Well, I've survived the steep learning curve for TiVo and iPhone, so now I really need to use those things for what they were intended (reducing the amount of time I sit motionless in front of a screen)... Well, that's not really true, actually, it's more like mummy-yoyo; bouncing up and down to meet the needs of one or the other of my menfolk - particularly cute little practically bald buddy...

So, as of today I have a new goal.

Wait for it...

1000 words a day!!!

I was thinking about it yesterday and I pretty much write that and more every day, anyway. Only now I'm going to focus on putting it into my thesis. I really have to. In six months time it and the exegesis for it, will be due. That's 45-50 000 words, all refined and polished within an iota!

I CAN do this!

The plan is to spend my day time doing stuff that doesn't require too much focus; basic housework and mothering stuffs, catching up on shows I've TiVo'd and also catching up with friends and…

Morning boys :)

Being cool, NOT!

So the boy said...

Ok, now with a pic!

The boys exhibiting sure signs of cabin fever!

Like Gwyneth Paltrow in Emma...

... where she goes, "I LOVE John... I HATE John!" I'm currently having a love/hate relation with technology...

I LOVE technology!

I HATE technology!!!

Erik is learning about technology at school atm, and he asked Dave if new technology makes our lives better. Dave said that really depended on some things... He said if the new technology actually meets a NEED, makes life more ENJOYABLE, AND is not painful to adapt to using, then yes - then he added MOST new technologies come no where nearly filling these requirements...

At 50, Dave is one of the origial ludites...

So, back to me loving technology...

I really do, I love to "play" and most new technology these days is all about playing. Not necessarily games, but all the same, the colourful lights, the cute sounds, the way thing flit about screens and slide and pop and whatnot...

So, have met most of our families NEEDS, I've been dabbling in meeting some of our WANTS lately... Ok, MY wants. Dave could happily t…