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I am looking forward to having $5000...

Because that is what I need to get my left eye straigtened...

When to the Eye Specialist yesterday to find out if I could the strabimus in my left eye fixed (I don't know if that sentence is grammatically correct or not - is "strabimus" a verb or a noun?)...

I was put through my paces look hard left and hard right, up and down, reading charts, having drops, going blind (thanks to the sedative on my eye balls, LOL)... Anyway, I have a 22 dgree outward turn on my left eye (so, to all those people who insist it's barely noticeable, rofl, thanks but don't worry about being polite anymore, hahaha)...

The Dr said he could definitely fix it. He said that due to the degree of turning, he couldn't guarantee that it wouldn't turn back out in 5 year or 25 years, and that he had the best results with turns of 17 degrees or less, but yes, it could be fix and as it had taken over 30 years for me to really notice a turn at all, then there was a very good chance of it sticking...

The procedure would mean a 24 hour stay in hospital and a GA. Ok, fine, I can live with that... I asked how much and he said $3500, but I'd get $500 back on medicare. Excellent! I'm expecting to $2500 one Dave's tax is in, and the rest I could scrape together... Then, he said his receptionist would give me the exact number... And she did, $3456, and I'd get $3006 back... Great! Then she adds that with the hosptial costs and the anaesthetist and something else, it would come to about $5000, but I'd get $1000 back... Suddenly the surgery is well out of reach...

Argh! A few weeks ago, my eye turning out was something that really bothered me but that I thought I'd just have to live with. Then, the boys' opthalmologist said I could probably get it fixed and it wouldn't cost that much (I guess if you're an Opthalmologist $5000 isn't that much, really)...

Amyhoo, I feel a bit like this thing I REALLY want is *just* outside my reach... Part of me thinks this surgery is nothing but vanity, but then my eye turning out really does bother me. The Dr couldn't say if it would cintnue to turn out further or not...

Maybe I should put more effort into learning how to use ebay and start a surgery fund? I need someone to come over and take me through the steps of listing on ebay, I'm sure if I could just do it once with someone, I could learn to do it...

Ok, E X H A L E, I need to let this just flow...

Comments

Amanda O. said…
Gods that sounds so frusterating and disheartening!

I haven't sold on e-Bay in ages but from what I remember it was pretty straightforward to do. Happy to come over sometime and help suss it out if you like.

I know it's probably not the case but could you talk to the doctors doing the surgery about some sort of financial hardship arrangement? IE downpayment and then pay in installments?

Or alternatively is there a particular date this surgery has to be done by? IE If it's not done asap your chances of it working and being permanent go down? (Sorry, not familiar with much about eye surgery...) Or is this somethign you can put money in the bank on and save aggressively for? I've surprised myself how much I've been able to save how quickly towards a 2nd car. Part of it being the stimulus package things and tax return but a lot of it just being saving very aggressively. We're about halfway there actually!

Dunno, it sucks that this kind of stuff comes down to money. Wish I could think of more. Maybe knitting up some hats, longies, soakers and booties etc and doing a fundraising auction on OzEbaby/WAHMthingie? Or Etsy or an Aussie equiv. I know selling them doesn't merit much payment once you subtract costs and time but sometimes the auctions go for nutso prices... like when you see soakers for 2-3x over what they 'sell' for because a couple of people have decided they MUST have that item.

FWIW, I actually don't notice the turn unless you mention it. That's not me fibbing or trying to be nice. I guess I just notice the person overall or what we're talking about more. Downside is I almost never recognize when someone has changed something else about themselves like haircuts or highlights. ~_~;
Nic said…
Okay so I dont know anything about what its like to have eye problems, and hope you can get some help. But, I DO know how frustrating it is to want some surgery (breast reduction in my case) and NOT have enough money to fix it. So heres hoping we win lotto or something tommorow.
MadHouse said…
Hi Sif...Karli had this surgery done on both her eyes under the Public System...Is that an option for you? We didn't have to pay anything except for the Dr/Surgeon visits.
Take care,
Jaki

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