Monday, May 11, 2009

That strange floaty, disconnected feeling is back...

Ok, tell me I'm not the only one who experiences this...

It's been happening again, just over the past couple of days. I get this odd sensation of things floating in space. Like, I might see words on my screen and wonder what's holding them in place. Why aren't they tumbling off the screen. Why am I not collapsing in a heap at the foot of my chair, here?

When I say floating. I don't mean like bobbing about in the sea, or on pillows of invisible hot air. I just mean that things, people, objects are able to somehow defy gravity, and at the same time not be so light and disjointed that they just fly apart...

Ok, so the feeling is very hard to describe.

I've kind of been aware for many years now, that everything, EVERYTHING around us, and even ourselves, is just made up of atoms, and within atoms, neurons and other small particles. That these itsy bitsy particles just float about together in clusters that form dense and less dense objects, but that REALLY, there is no reason for these itsy bitsy particles to remain groups together into objects of varying density except the reason BECAUSE...

There is this theory that objects don't actually exists as cohesive "objects" until we look at them and our brain "creates" the object from our eyes picking up the particles (or something)... That explains why individuals can look at the same thing and perceive it differently, and only perceive it the same as each other when they have come to an "agreeance" of what they are looking at. As we are unable to actually SEE what the person next to us is SEEING, we can only assume that they see exactly what we see, we choose to come to some mutual agree that, for example, the car over there is bright red with white tyres that that those descriptions of those aspects is experienced in the exact same way by each person.

Ok, so back to the floating. I guess, somewhere in my strange ol' brain, this underlying knowledge that everything, including space, is just particles floating about, makes me perceives things as floating, but in view and in the sensation of floating myself... Like I experience gravity the way one itsy bitsy particle might experience it... That *i* - this entity I identify as being me, really isn't here, really isn't bound by gravity and so it's kind of surprising to me that I don't just float away...

Hehehe, yes, I'm serious...

2 comments:

Spiralmumma said...

Nope, but sometimes I wonder if i really exist...

LOL :D

No seriously, I sort of know what you mean..I get a weird disconnected from reality feeling a lot..

Amanda O. said...

I don't know if it's quite the same thing as you're describing but a lot of times I start to feel sort of a slipping-out-of-body sensation. Sort of sinking, rising and seperating from the physical. And no, I've never taken an illegal drug in my life. LOL

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