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A few things...

  • FIL is in a bad way. He doesn't know it yet, D and MIL are breaking the news to him in the morning. Basically, he's just winding down with old age, but an infection developed in his foot, and they've been struggling to get it to heal, and then on top of that his big toe and the one next to it are turning black which means his circulation is really bad in his foot. They obvious treatment now is to amputate the foot, but because he is so very frail, the operation could put his life at risk. To leave the foot would be disasterous though > necrosis > infection > blood poisoning > death. Once the foot is amputated MIL will not be able to care for him at home (he is so frail now, he's bed ridden most of the day, and needs assistance to use the commode in his room), so it would mean moving him permanently to a hospis or such like. It's just all too sad to think about :(...
  • I'm experiencing constant headaches from eye strain. Today I've gone and filled a prescription for reading glasses, I'm really hoping they'll help as I believe most of the headaches are from eye strain from staring at screens all day...
  • While at my opthalmologist this morning, we discussed the outcome of seeing the eye surgeon. She was surprised they didn't offer me a public system operation, and suggested I call them back and ask what my options are regarding a public operation. I called and a very sweet sounding receptionist took the call, I told her I'd recently seen Dr K for an assessment and she was all bright and chirpy. Then I told her I'd been talking to my opthalmologist about how there was no way I could afford the op, and she'd suggested asking about public. LOL, it was like switching a tv channel! The receptionist suddenly went all curt. Told me Dr K DOES NOT do public surgery, that I could have the op publicly but "you wouldn't have Dr K and you couldn't choose your surgeon, you'd just get anyone", and the way she said anyone suggested the cleaner could be called in to do the job... LOL, well, I told her that atm I have no option but to proceed publicly and asked her how to do that, so she's sending me a form to fill out that will be passed onto the hospital. She had "no idea" how long the public waiting list was... Oh well, beggars can't be choosers and who knows maybe in the meantime we'll find the money somehow...
  • Made an appointment with Dr L (dermatologist) who apparently no longer bulk bills (according to HIS receptionist, what's with the doorbitch receptionists, anyway???)...
  • Still haven't done much writing this week...
  • Feeling blah, and not because I had started catching A's cold last Sunday evening. It got worse on Monday, but then on Tuesday I got Dave to get some Olive Leaf Extract, and cold was as bad yesterday as on Tuesday but all but gone today - totally amazing stuff! Ari's cold is still in full swing though.
  • Ari's day sleeping is just going completely pear shaped this week. I know, it's probably just the cold, but all the same. He doesn't sleep until totally and thoroughly exhausted and even then he doesn't sleep long...
  • Have a lead on a kinder option for Bryn that's not too far away, and now I'm all ummm, ahhhh... Need to at least check it out, I think though...
  • Am giving vegan a go again, lots of reasons - have been abusing my body lately particularly with dairy products (why do I ever think I'm suddenly going to be more lactose tolerant), but also on a quasi spiritual level, need to not ingest suffering, too much suffering around already...
  • Considering shaving my head again, both for medical reasons but also just because I want to. But something holding me back, maybe the look of fear in Dave's eyes???
  • I REALLY need to be strict with myself about getting to bed earlier. Last night I was so tired and yet wired that I couldn't sleep for hours, all this rubbish posing as thoughts bouncing around in my head...

Comments

Nic said…
Oh wow sounds so stressful (hugs) So sorry to hear about your FIL poor guy :-( Hope your not too long on the waiting list either.
Stitch Sista said…
You are having a really rough trot atm. I hope there are some good outcomes to this, and that your FILs situation improves as best it can .

((hugs))
Juniper said…
huge ((hugs)) re: your FIL situation, and also just in general - sounds like you need some, even if they are "virtual"...
katef said…
sorry to hear about your FIL.. that must be tough on everyone.
And I totally hear you on the door bitch receptionists!

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