Sunday, June 28, 2009

The elipses of life...

So, i touched on this topic briefly in yesterday's post, but wanted to probe it more closely today...

Soon i'll be applying to undertake a Tafe course that i actually applied for twenty years ago (it's probably not EXACTLY) the same course, but very similar, on the same career path. I didn't get into the course twenty years ago because i was overseas at the time of applicant interviews. I guessits been playing on my mind how not getting into that course two decades ago changed the trajectory of my life, and how a multitude of moments like that are constantly changing our lives...

I'm not a fatalist, but i believe in grand designs, all the same. Many eliptical grand designs that propel us through our lives in accordance with the uncountable decisions we make every day.

I wonder, though, when my life takes a turn like this (wherein i seem to have come full circle over a twenty year cycle) at the importance of this choice in my life?

I have an old friend, we were once good frinds but time an geographical distance have made us distant observers of one anothers lives, who is now leading the life i'd planned for myself some 21 years ago. Back then this same friend would have sworn up and down that the life she has now was not for her. She has followed in her parents footsteps, which was very much expected of her (as it was of all of us in that community a lifetime ago), but back then she was adamantly against then idea of becoming what her parents had become, whereas i was enamoured by the idea and had my life mapped out for that vocation.

Then events intervened to completely throw me off that trajectory and onto one where i would travel to the other side of the globe and become a childcare worker - or so i thought...

Life is just never that simple!

I didn't get into the childcare course, and my life took yet another turn, a turn that resulted in meeting Dave and having four children, and studying, and meeting and befriending some amazing people!

Now, the life i would have chosen to decades or more ago seems like and alien reality that i could no more live in than the depths of the ocean...

But still, here i am returned to a place so similar to one i found myself in twenty years ago, and yet so very, very altered. I sense there is something to be aware of now, but i'm not entirely sure what it is, time will tell, i'm sure of that...

1 comment:

Jen said...

Hey Sif. I stumbled across this while trawling through job websites and I thought of you. The whole paid while studying sounds great, no idea if that is the kind of course you would do and I know the timing is off but anyways ;)

http://mycareer.com.au/jobs/melbourne/education/early-childhood/7058400+get+paid+while+you+study.aspx?style=enhanced&s=500

I love the way that your life has come full circle :) great post.

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