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The little things...

It's been a rollercoaster of a week here; what with finishing the first draft of the manuscript (huge relief!), to having my laptop then go into a coma (major stress!), and thinking that because I really needed to buy a new computer that was reliable and within external student specs for uni, I wasn't going to be able to go on the roadtrip with Jayne next weekend (huge disappointment + guilt for disappointing Jayne and the kids)... But then with the help of friends and Jayne's lovely mum, I can still go on the roadtrip and I have a new computer as well (HUGE RELIEF and gratitude!)...

Anyway, another friend put me onto the great idea of having a gratitude blog. I'd already downloaded a gratitude journal application onto my iPhone, and that allows me to export to blogs, so I set up a gratitude blog, which you can access on the right hand column there, if you like. I'm hoping it might inspire, and others might do this for themselves - no need to be as public about i…

I'm only as happy as my unhappiest child...

I heard a mother say this today, and while I generally don't like to focus on the negative, isn't this SO true!!!

It's really hard to be at peace when any one of your children is not. Thing about having four children is that it's often hard to find a time when all the kids are happy, hahaha! There are moments though, and boy do those moments shine!!!

My children's worries are my worries, even though I have the ability to see the big picture and know things will work themselves out or blow over or come good, or whatever is most likely to reduce the worry in the long term.

The draft is done...

I just finished writing the first rough draft of my Masters thesis novel. The polished thesis novel is due by the 1st of November and there is a lot of work I need to do before then, including writing a 10 000 word exegesis (explaining how I formulated my plot and what research I did with regard to my market, the plot itself and how to write generally speaking) and editing the manuscript to the most finished version I can get to (should be the version I'd hand into a publisher for consideration - eek, eek and triple eek!)...

I just had to mark this milestone in the process though, because for me, I guess knowing how the story would end was a big deal for me because I don't usually write to a plan (which is what is expected for this project), and so now knowing how the story ends, is a big deal, LOL.

The thing is, I guees, I was expecting to feel a huge sense of relief having finally FINISH the plotting, but instead I'm filled with doubt. Doubt about the strength of the plo…

Smile - you'll live longer!

This article was posted by Leah on Facebook this morning, and it was so good, I just had to blog about it!

For those of you who are too busy to go read it (though it's really very short, but still I know some of you have lives, LOL). It pretty much says that a group of researchers have done a study on the correlation between 100 000 women's life outlook (attitude) and their long term health, and have found that women who are optimistic are significantly more likely to live longer!

Now, living longer isn't for everyone, and I suspect if you have a pessimistic attitude, you don't really think there is any benefit to living longer anyway, because well, life is so hard - who in their right mind would want to prolong the suffering...

But anyway, for those of us who do love life, and find it mostly gratifying, Yay!!! We get to have more of it!

The most interesting part to me, the bit I took from this, is that mistrusting others, and being cynical or harbouring hostile thoughts…

Attitude of Gratitude...

It's all too easy to get bogged down in the stresses of life. In some ways this last week has been quite stressful. I'm a long way behind on my thesis novel and time is starting to run short. Luey has been having a difficult time at school lately, and Erik has been suffering with insomnia (which I'm beginning to this is probably carried in the genes and he got it from me). My nanna had a stroke on Bryn's (and my mum's birthday), and well after Dave's dad, it's all a bit close to home...

But, then there is so very much to be grateful for and just the act of gratitude helps to bring peace to a troubled heart...

So, the 10 top things I'm grateful for atm...

The weather has been so much better in the last few days, we've had sun and warmth and today I went out without any kind of coat or cardigan, and the cherry blossoms were out and the world just felt happier.I just read on a cousin's facebook that Nanna moved her left foot a little (she has left…

About now, four years ago...

I was 41 weeks and 4 days pregnant.

I was sitting in my study, playing poppit on the computer, and browsing parenting forums.

I was listening to Dave snoring in our bedroom, two rooms away.

I was TIRED, so very tired. That kind of tired you only feel when you've been pregnant FOREVER and you've had prelabour FOREVER and you've been to the hospital, only to have labour stall.

But as well as tired, there was something else. A tiny little thing, deep down, an ember glowing in the depths of my mind. That ember has caught a breeze earlier in the day. I'd woken up in the wee hours of this day, four years ago, we regular mild contractions. I'd been excited! FINALLY! Finally I was going to go into labour ON MY OWN! Not at 42 weeks with the assistance of ruptured membranes and a drip. Not at 40 weeks and 4 days with the assistance of rupture membranes, but ALL ON MY OWN, because my baby was ready!

I'd gotten up at 5am, all set to labour at home for a while. My exc…

Not cut out for this parenting gig...

How do other parents keep it together when their kids are feeling like the world is out to get them???

When my boys started school, it was very good for us in one way. Because Dave and I do the parenting thing pretty much on our own from a practical sense (with the emotional support of our parents), the first 7.5 years of parenting was ever more strained as days, weeks and years passed and we (well, maybe it was just me) had more and more kids.

My ability to cope with the day to day pressures of parenting 1, 2 and 3 children without a break, without a car, and without full sight, was patchy at best. My relationship with Erik, in particular, suffered from that, and I do regret that.

So, when they went to school, I have to admit, it was a good thing for all of us. If gave us all a little space, so we were able to miss one another and actually enjoy each other's company.

I know there are homeschoolers for whom this is not their bleak reality, I often wonder what the hell was wrong wit…

New Things!

This is Ari in his new Bugaboo Bee! It arrived this morning, and marks a new chapter in my latent (or not so latent) pram obsession...

I NEED this new pram because of how narrow it is, and how it fits neatly into a taxi boot, even those annoying ones with the tyre in the boots (which seems to be most of them these days, grrrr)... The other reason I NEED this pram is because it folds down as ONE PIECE, which hasn't been that important until now, but with Ari getting more mobile, I need to be able to hold him while erecting the pram, and I can't do that with the Frog, sadly...

This has led to another NEW thing... Listing items online for sale... I've listed my beloved Bugaboo Frog on Gumtree, as you can see here!

I so don't want to sell this pram, she's so, so lovely!!! However, I won't use her now that the Bee (nn. Saphy) is here and is easier to use when out and about.

And finally, I have a new blog. MetaSIFical is all about my thoughts on metaphysical stuff,…

One reason I loves the internet!

Restaurants post their menus on the net!

When I first heard that the AB dinner would be at La Camera and I realise that was an Italian restaurant (not a camera shop, LOL), I had a mild freak out...

Yk, coz, well, I'm doing this vegan thing, and more specifically, this RAW vegan thing (though not 100% this week, coincidentally, LOL). And when I think of Italian food, raw vegan just doesn't come to mind... Vegetarian, yes, but amongst all the cream sauces, and the bacon, and the meat pizzas, and the cooked stuff, what the hell was I going to eat! Hence the mild FREAK OUT!

Ok, so I decided to look the restaurant up online, and see if they had posted their menu, and Voila! There it was!

Turns out they have a lovely VEGAN salad, consisting of leafy greens, apple, orange, grapes, chick peas, nuts and roasted sesame seeds (I guess I could ask them to hold the roasted sesame seeds, but well, not this week)! Yum!

So, thanks to modern technology my frazzled nerves are calmed and I …

Welcome to the last month of Winter!

Finally, August is here! Whoo hoo!

August always starts with the feast of Imbolc on the 1st and what a lovely feast it is. The feast of renewal

Lots of new stuff happening around here this week.

On Friday I went to the Eye and Ear hospital for an assessment to have my left eye operated on and straightened. The assessment went well. The doctor said they had about a 95% chance of making me happy with the outcome (getting the left eye completely straight). The doctor did say though, that as my eye condition is rather unique. they can't give me any indication about how long the effects of the surgery would last. My eye could turn out again (or even turn in) in 2 months or 10 years. They said it would almost CERTAINLY turn again because it's completely blind and so there is nothing to tell the eye where it should focus.

I have to wait a minimum of three months for the surgery so they can see how stable my eye is. This means they'll do measurements again and see if it's …