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I have to admit, I've already left 2009 behind, mentally. Yeah, I don't think I'd ever make a great Buddhist!

2009 has been a big year with a lot of changes and a lot of challenges. I hesitate at calling it a "terrible year" for a couple of reasons. First, it has been the first year of Ari's life and that, in itself, has been a joy and I don't want to diminish that time at all. Second, challenges are a chance to grow and I do embrace any chance to grow.

That said, I'm quite looking forward to 2010!

Just the fact that it'll be 2010 and that being, for me at least, quite an iconic "year" makes it kind of exciting!

It's going to be a very busy year, and I don't mind busy. I prefer busy to "don't know what I'm going to be doing".

Bryn is starting kinder next year. He will be the first of my brood to ever go to school. When Erik and Luey were 4, I was in full homeschooling mode - well, unschooling mode. The thought of sending Erik, in particular, off to spend several hours a day, two or three days a week with people who were neither Dave nor myself, seemed AWFUL! Even in hindsight, I don't believe Erik would have coped well with that situation, he was definitely a boy who needed to stay close to home until he himself decided he was ready to take on the world.

In hindsight, I think Luey might have liked the idea of going to kinder, but the reality, for him, would have challenging. He struggled a fair bit with his first year at school as it was.

Bryn, however, could be going to kinder now. He's excited about the idea and more than ready to mix it up with a new group of people. I'm excited right along with him!

I'm also hoping to be doing a Certificate III in Children's Services course at our local Tafe for the first six months of 2010. This will provide me with qualifications to allow me to take on some part time work around the kids school times. The plan is for Dave to be with Ari, and Bryn when Bryn isn't at kinder, and for me to do the course, and later to work. Of course, if Dave becomes gainfully employed himself before February, this plan will probably have to be shelved, but at this point, I just can't see that happening. I'm hoping to get an offer in the next week or so. That's both exciting and bit nervewracking - not sure how I feel about being away from Ari while he's still so little, but I do know he'll be in good hands with his dad.

I'll still be working on my Thesis (novel) and am planning to submit next November. At this point, I have nothing more to say on that subject.

We might move. There are no plans, firm or otherwise, to move, but it's been on the card for a couple of years now. Dave and I have recently been talking about inviting his mum to come and live with us if and when she feels she needs more help with day to day living. At the moment, she's fairing well on her own. Yesterday was her 81st birthday, but she is still comfortably doing all she needs to get done. However, if a time should come when she feels the need for more support, we've decided the best bet might be to all move in together. Still not sure if she would even be open to this possiblity - I mean, it's been her and FIL for the past 12 years or so, and that is just a little different from living with 6 other people, four of whom are boisterous pre-adolescent boys... Hmmmmm. Well, anyway, that's out there in our future as well.

I'm also still waiting to hear back from the Eye and Ear hospital with regard to my eye-straightening surgery. When I attended the assessment in July (I think it was July, it's all getting a bit blurry now), they said "between 6-9 months, 12 months at the most"... So, we're hitting the 6 month mark now. It's cosmetic surgery only, and the effects of the surgery may not be permanent (there is a good chance they'll only last 5-10 years, but could last as little as 3 months), but for my self-esteem, I really need to get this seen to.

I have to start meditating on what person goals I would like to achieve in 2010 as well.


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