Saturday, May 08, 2010

In the process...

Change is hard. Change is also inevitable. Even as I write this, even as you read this, we are changing. Subtle changes happens all the time and because we often don't take much notice of them, they don't seem to bother us too much. Sometimes we suddenly become aware of a change that has been happening for a while, but that we haven't notice and it takes us by surprise - not in a good way. The, "OMG, how did I manage to put on 10kg overnight?" change, that wasn't really overnight, but just so subtle we didn't notice...

Other change, even when it's slow, and sometimes because it seems TOO SLOW, can be very painful.

Labour is a pretty dramatic change which is also very painful and in the midst of it all, more often than not, seems to be taking FAR TOO LONG! Painful change always takes too long.

Labour tells us something about slow, painful change, though. It tells us that slow, painful change can lead to something equisitely beautiful. Something we couldn't imagine having ever lived without. Something we'd go through all the prolonged pain in the world for, if we had to do it again...

So, I think that's how I need to view this brief period of my life (that doesn't feel so brief at this point in time when I'm sitting in the midst of it all). I need to view this painful state of flux, of change, as the process of gaining something I will later consider something I couldn't imagine ever having lived without...

2 comments:

Juniper said...

Oh I can relate to the subtle change of "10kg overnight" LOL!

But seriously, sounds like life feels a bit tough for you at the moment. If you want to catch up IRL sometime soon (whenever suits you - you are the one with a crazy schedule) let me know!

Sif said...

Thanks, Jen, life it tough at the moment. Much tougher than i anticipated it would be. Seriously, my next day without anything (either school, work, or entertaining family visitors) scheduled (was just saying this to Jayne today), is Saturday, May 29...

That's why i'm choosing to view this as a process.

Teenagers and the failing parent...