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Hard to know what to do...

It really is hard to know what to do.

I've got 10 weeks left of my Masters, which isn't very long really, but then ago maybe too long to put off doing something else - you know, like getting a real job and getting a better income into this household.

Have been investigating the possibility of doing the Diploma in Children's Services and just got off the phone with a course provider who was all friendly and helpful until I asked about workplacement.  She think seemed to become a little bit bristly (might have just been my perception) and said, "Well, no, we don't arrange placement because our students are usually working, so placement takes care of itself.  You do have to already have a Cert. III to get into the diploma..." I said I do have a Cert. III and then she says, "Well, usually people who have a Cert. III are already working..."

I guess they usually are.  I'm not.  Mostly because I'm trying to finish this degree.

When asking about concession rates for the course (of which there are none, because, I'm guessing, all the students are working and can afford the fees?), I mentioned I was on a disability pension.  She then wanted to know if I *could* work.  I said I have a vision impairment which doesn't impede my ability to do the job.  I just got the feeling she might be picturing someone with a cane trying to bustle around after unruly three year olds.

So, I'm asking myself, am I barking up the wrong tree here.  I mean, I haven't actually tried to get work yet and I'm considering upskilling already.  I have this disability that people aren't really sure how to deal with - or maybe I'm projecting.  I don't know.  Maybe I just need to focus on writing and make the no money for the time being thing work?

It's so hard to know what to do...

Comments

Jen said…
Is it possible to do emergency childcare work through an agency a couple of days a week Sif? That way you are getting some income and also have days off to work on the Masters, plus the work experience would look good on a c.v. If it was me I would put off further childcare study until the masters is finished...but this is about you not me :). Good luck with your decision :)
Sif said…
Yeah, you're pretty much saying exactly what I know I should do. Sign up with the agency now. It's just that I get so tired when I would that I wonder if I'd have the energy to think about writing... I need to just suck it up, Princess, I think...

Oh and I'm letting my fear of rejection on both counts (novel and work) dampen any enthusiasm for either option...

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