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Thankful Thursday: Things May Just Be Turning Around For Us...

We've had a rough trot since the beginning of 2009 with one challenge after another, but it's beginning to feel like things may be turning around for us. Let me count the ways.

Today is the absolute last deadline for Erik to submit his painting for the Local Landscapes exhibition at the Ian Potter Annex at Federation Square. If you're a Melbournian, or visiting in the next little while, be sure to check it out, it's very handy to Flinders Street Station, on Federation Square. Most of the art is by Australian grade six students and you might spot a future national treasure! Of course, to me, my son is already a treasure and I'm so proud of his painting.

We're all thankful it's finally finished! Now he'll have a break for a couple of weeks and then he'll get started on a painting for the Artist Camp Fair Art Show - he's hoping to sell and make a bit of pocket money!
This week our laundry flooded. The Grumpy Old Man realised the water was coming fr…

Oh, that's right, I have a blog...

My poor, neglected readers!

I've been a bit slack lately, my apologies.

Life is being, well, life, and getting in the way of blogging.

I have so many things I could write about, want to write about, but then I get distracted.

So, this blog post is going to be another one of those, 'Catch up on Sif's crazy world' type of posts... Here goes.

Adelaide Trip

This went well. I've nailed down - okay, blue tacked down - my PhD thesis topic. I've been warned to keep schtum about it because, well, it's just so brilliant! Actually because it's a relatively new area of research, and being so new, it's wide open - which is great for me, but also a bit tricky... I can tell you it has nothing to do with Icelandic folklore, but is something I'm very excited about nonetheless. Once I've had my proposal accepted, I'll tell you all about it.

I have the proposal well under way and, with any luck, will have it submitted by the end of July. Woot! It's all …

Thankful Thursday: The Winter Solstice Edition...

It's Thankful Thursday again, of course, I was always going to post today because I'm ever so thankful the Grumpy Old Man passed his licence test last Monday!

I have much more to be thankful for though...

I am thankful that today is the winter solstice, the very sgortest day of the year, which means as of tomorrow the days will only get longer and brighter and warmer until just before Christmas!

I am thankful to be in Adelaide today in the rarified academic atmosphere of Tabor College where I undertook my Writing Masters! 

I'm thankful the Grumpy Old Man is okay with me taking off for a few days while he has the kids, so I can focus fully on preparing to write the propsal for the PhD I want to do very soon!

I am thankful for conversations with people that help my sort out exactly how I want to approach this thesis.

I am thankful for school mums who help ferry 6 year olds to and from concerts when their own mum has abandoned them to 'pursue her career'!

I a…

Going to Adelaide in the morning, but before I go...

Tonight, I'm so so happy!

I have a sense of happiness which is quiet, but loud at the same time. I want to yell it from the roof tops.

Today the Grumpy Old Man...

~ after 3 years, four months, and one week of studying, practicing and testing
~ after thousands of dollars spent on lessons
~ after putting up with untold hours of my nagging and lamenting over the past eight years (at least) and most intensely in the past five years
~ after trying one mode, then changing to another
~ after having three different instructors (though one only for one lesson)
~ after eight failed attempts at the final test


Yes he did!

I'm so proud of him for his determination and dedication and for facing his fears and well and truly overcoming them, for mastering a skill he never even desired to attain, for putting the needs of his wife and his children first and for never giving up!

This morning I was convinced he wouldn't pass. I told him I didn't think he'…

Meet the school mums, Protect the Astor, Meet the friends - Call me Superwoman!

If you popped by earlier because you saw this heading in your blog roll or RSS feed and then found it completely empty - you'll already know I'm no Superwoman... I wrote the heading, then got distracted by upset three year old and posted it, oops!

Okay, what I was going to say - before I got distracted - was that I've had a huge weekend and today I'm totally wiped out, but at the same time I have a great sense of satisfaction over all I've personally achieved.

I've had agoraphobia for many, many years - I first became aware of it during my second pregnancy, and received counselling for it after Lukas was born. For the most part, since then I've kept it in check by forcing myself to get out enough that I don't become crippled by anxiety.

This year though, anxiety and agoraphobia has been kicking my butt. I'm desperate to get out of the house but most days I just can't. The thought of going out there - even just to pick the kids up from school - f…

Fear is the root of anger...

I have seen so much anger recently.

I keep waiting for the anger to abate, but it never does, in all these years since I realised I inhabited an adult world and was no longer protected by childhood, I've notice that anger is everywhere.

I feel a lot of it myself, so there is a distinct possibility I may be projecting.

Then again, maybe not. Even as I type this, I can hear in the background a radio national host asking an interviewee if they feel anger. People are very attuned to this feeling in this day and age.

I've spoken about the two base emotions before; fear and love, and today I thought I'd speak about fear again.

You see fear is the basis of anger (and in fact, every negative emotion).

Fear is an important emotion and we need it to stay alive. Without fear we would walk of cliff sides and eat glass.

A lot of modern evangelists (of all varieties; religious, business, birth etc.) encourage people to go forth without fear, or even to ignore their fear and do it anyway

Come here puppy, come to mummy!

I'm battling the black dog at the moment. It annoys because my rational mind says, 'You know it's in the house, just shoo it out, tell it go away, kick it to the curb!'

Life isn't bad.

Sure the Grumpy Old Man still doesn't have a job or his licence, but we're doing okay and let's face it, we've been doing okay all this time. With some [occassionally dodgy] budgeting, we're making it work. I could still buy Erik that coat he's been wanting for weeks now, and I'm going out for dinner next Friday night, so it can't be that bad.

There are no pressures on me that I haven't heaped on myself. No one is making me write for blog hops or fellowships or degree proposals.

We passed the house inspection with flying colours last Wednesday and have asked for another 12 month contract.

Erik is going gangbusters with his painting.

My parents are now on talking terms.

MIL's health is good and, more importantly, stable.

My cousins all over the …

Everything in balance - a zen kind of life.

I'm feeling the zen today!

On Thursday I blogged about how awesome I am. Most of the time I really do feel that I'm pretty damn awesome. I also feel that a lot of people just don't see how awesome I am, and it's constantly a shock to my system when I realise they're just not seeing it!

Then I have days like today.

Days where I've just discovered two of my children conspired to steal a $20 note from my desk and take it to school and shout themselves and some friends to goodies from the canteen - if only one of them hadn't lost the note between leaving the house and canteen time...

Days where I see that my children are able to perpetuate a charade of 'looking for the note' for THREE HOURS!

Days where I watch them try to put the blame on each other or on their baby brother.

Days where I know I haven't managed to submit anything to a really inspiring blog hop and I won't get to it today either.

Days where I realise it's the 9th of the month …

Thankful Thursday: I am awesome!

Man I was in such a funk yesterday and for most of the day I had something bordering on a migraine (as bad as a headache gets before full blown nausea and inability to communicate hits). Lots of people copped the wrath of my temper and for that I feel the need to apologise.

I'm sorry.

Today, I thought I'd try to get back on an even keel by deciphering what it is I'm thankful for. I had read from Kate at Kate Says Stuff not to post to the Thankful link up before reading her post for today, so I just went over there to read it, and here's the deal.

She's asking participants to list three reasons they are awesome followed by three awesome things about three other people (I'm assuming bloggers, here, but I guess they don't have to be bloggers), and then letting those people know so they can also participate if they feel that way inclined.

I don't actually mind listing three reasons I'm awesome (this will come as no surprise to my regular readers). Genera…

Oy! You're shitting me, today!

I'm in a shitty mood this morning. I've had a stressful week - that is part of it - but mostly, I just don't have a lot of tolerance for bullshit.

Last night I reposted this on Facebook...

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Roller Coaster Riding!

This is probably my favourite scene from the movie Parenthood (which is one of my all time favourite movies).

This last week has been all about riding the roller coaster.

I was prepared for that, the anxiety of volunteering at the Emerging Writers' Festival, the Grumpy Old Man's job interview, getting the Text Publishing manuscript in before the deadline.

I actually thought it would all end with Erik's highschool interview this morning, but this week seems set to be another roller coaster ride.

This morning we went to the highschool we're hoping Erik will get into for next year. I'd heard good things about it and then checked it out online and was impressed with what I saw, but I was not prepared for what the interview would reveal.

I'm so glad I had an opportunity to speak with the principal a few weeks ago, which inspired me to get Erik into the local art course (which, of course, has now led to an exhibition which started on Saturday). Erik had art to show …

Forty and still learning social skills.

I did a session of volunteering last night at the Emerging Writer's Festival. It went well, I was able to be useful - which was the point of volunteering, really.

For the most part I was stationed in the outside drinks and sandwiches section, answering questions about whether or not this was the event people wanted to be at, if they could take their drinks inside and where the toilets might be - nothing taxing.

On a couple of occasions I had the opportunity to talk to a couple of the participants (ironically, in my 'crew' tee shirt, I probably looked like a safe person to approach - they couldn't see the agoraphobe in me), and this is where I'm kicking myself today...

I was at a writers' event, the people attending were there because they are, in some way, interested in writing!

So, what did I talk with them about?

Well, shoes, of course.

Shoes and the weather, to be exact.

I'm kicking myself that I didn't ask if they were a writer, an editor, or a publ…