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Happy Birthday to Me!

Forty-one!

I don't feel a day over 28... Well, most of the time.

I went and cut off all my hair again...


I jokingly told a friend, 'Other people give up caffeine and sugar, I give up hair!' I was going to grow it long, but in the end I just felt middle-aged with a neither-here-nor-there style and that's not really me. I'm growing old disgracefully, not out of a sense of rebellion, but because I love trying new things. The hairdresser who cut my hair didn't understand my instructions at first. She started trying to cut my hair into a layered short bob (think close fitting helmet!). I picked up a mag and showed her Jamie Lee Curtis and said, 'No, this!'

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She looked at me askance, 'That's very short, are you sure?'

So, of course, I told her I've shaved my head three times. I think she had seen me waddle into the salon with 20 shopping bags of groceries, in my peasant top and black pants and thought, 'Middle-aged mum haircut.' It was only when she looked closer that she spotted the tattoos, the piercings and then she realised the very short cut wasn't a stretch for me. In the end she was actually quite pleased with herself and a little surprised at how well this overweight, 40-ish woman wears ultra short hair...

In other news...

Erik had his graduation this week and had to give a one line speech - I'm so proud of him, there simply are no words to describe the feeling!



Also, the Macarena to that awful Gangnam Style song...


In other, other news...

MIL has been so generous as to give us Christmas this year - again, I have no words, I was very depressed at what Christmas was going to look like with no presents and no food, but she has come to the rescue and we have some great surprises in store for the kids thanks to her.

My parents are also being extremely generous and so all of us are going to be very blessed this year!

Back to me and turning forty-one...

This morning I received some gorgeous presents from the Grumpy Old Man and the boys...


The tall tea light holder is call 'Clementine', and you can find her at Dusk. The lotus tea light holder is also from Dusk (I really love so much of what Dusk sells - if you love candles you really have to pay a visit there - their prices are very, very reasonable). The strand of beads with elephants and mirrors is from Ishka and is another item for my growing lucky elephant collection, it has a bell on it too and I just adore bells - to me they are like angel voice warding off negative energy!

I feel very pampered today!

Tonight, I'm having some friends over for a birthday gathering-cum-Tupperware party - combining two of my favourite things; friends and Tupperware!

So, it's all fun and games here!

I love growing older. I don't believe in the reincarnation of a discrete soul, but if I did I'd think perhaps I died at a very young age in a previous life and that is why every new birthday and progression of age is so thrilling to me...

I don't really understand the trepidation with ageing. Possibly for me it's because I've never was a great beauty when I was younger and so I'm not really losing an asset I had. However, as I age and have more experiences I understand myself better and the world around me a teensy bit better as well, and for me that is comforting.

I am becoming more and more comfortable in my skin and with my life choices. I care less about what other people think of me (well, most of the time, but that's a lot less than it used to be, believe me!)...

Expect some changes and some mixing it up in the next 365 days. I'm feeling the need for a gap year, a year to be my own 'Yes Woman', a year to step outside my comfort zone - which has shrunk so much over the past few years and is now a very claustrophobic postage stamp sized space - and to do a few things I've only previously thought about but not given myself enough credit to throw myself fully into.

I've learned I only have right now. I can only affect this moment in time. I've always been a big planner, and I've always thought that if I crossed me 't's and dotted my 'i's, I could influence the outcomes in my life. More and more as I age, I find this hypothesis to be wanting.

I used to believe I could 'positive think' myself into the life I felt I should have. My brain is exhausted from the effort of that exercise.

So, now I just want to live in the moment. I've said this before, but then always slipped back into the old habit of wishing for the future. At forty-one I want mindfully practice Carpe Diem and when I feel inspired I will act - not by making a plan to do, but by doing!

Let's see where that takes me in the next 12 months...

Comments

Sarah said…
Happy Birthday Sif - you totally rock that hair cut!! x
Rhianna SG said…
Happy birthday beautiful Sif, you sure do rock that hair. Fairy wishes and butterfly kisses. May the year ahead be full of good fortune but mostly lots of love and laughter.

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