So, things I know about short fuses...
- I have a short fuse, I've always had a short fuse. Maybe because I have a short attention span - who knows. I'm sure it's genetic though, both my mum and dad have short fuses. My brother's fuse is longer but when it goes - Ka-Blamy!!!
- My eldest recently pointed out to me that my youngest two have it pretty good, that I don't lose my cool with them nearly as much as I did with him and Luey. I had to apologise to him for that, and admit Bryn and Ari have been very lucky because Erik and Luey taught me so much. I know my parenting fuse has gotten longer, but not without cost to my older boys.
- I know my fuse is badly affected by hormonal fluctuations. And I know, that is an irritating thing to admit to. I definitely have a short fuse about two days before my period and again about day three of my cycle. I'm not sure why it is so specific, but I've been tracking it for a while now and it's fairly consistent...
- I know my fuse is shorter when I feel threatened. If I'm under stress, or I feel as if I'm not getting my fair share of recognition, my fuse burns at an enormous rate. Recognition is my language of love. I need to have my achievements, abilities, and talents recognised. I don't need presents, and I don't need a lot of physical contact, but when people recognise and value the work I have done, my fuse burns very slowly.
- A blown fuse can be a bit like an orgasm. I often find a great sense of relief once the fuse has reached it's ultimate conclusion and the tension between my growing annoyance and fighting to remain in control and calm is over. Sadly, this usually means putting relationships at risk. Sometimes I just wish I didn't have a fuse at all. Sometimes I feel having a fuse means I'm alive, I care about stuff enough to get annoyed. Sometimes I think I should take up Zen buddhism. Most of the time I'm just confused.
- I haven't found an effective way to douse a fuse that is burning too quickly - I am very much open to suggestions!
What do you know?