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Will the 12th Doctor have the same sense of wonder the 11th Doctor had?

Let's take a break from all the discussion of stress and study and talk about something far more enjoyable!

Not long now until season 8 of new Who is launched (okay, so it's about 2.5 months, but seriously it's never too early to get excited). Of course, we're kicking off with a brand new Doctor - in fact, a whole new life cycle of The Doctor! It's very exciting but also a little scary. It's a lot like a first date, isn't it? We have no idea what he'll be like, we've only really seen his photo, and very short (I mean REALLY short) taste of his talent in the last Christmas Special). It wasn't enough to form an opinion from.

The new Doctor will be older and I'm not about to suggest that is a bad thing. Let's face it, the very first Doctor we saw was an old man who progressively seemed to get younger. Maybe that is what will happen now. Of course, who the next 'next Doctor' is, or even if there is another Doctor after Capaldi will d…

Looking forward to getting past this next month...

Back in the office today to do some revisions and more work on the colloquium document. I know doing this is not a waste of my time; it will provide me with a solid foundation and plan for the next eighteen months, but I have to say, it is tedious.

I'm starting to long for a solid chunk of creative writing time, or even researching time.

Nerves are playing a big part in my dread of this next month and a bit. In exactly 32 days I'll be coming in to Uni to present and defend my thesis proposal. The past twelve months have been working toward this point. I have to do a ten minute talk up front and that really makes me nervous. I can quite easily stand in front of a class and talk, but this is quite different, these people know more about what I'm doing (though not specifically about my topic) than I do, and it's my job to make them interested in what I want to research, but also to them to see the benefit in my research. That is scary!

My supervisor says I'm too humbl…

Compartmentalising my life...

I realised the other day I am increasingly compartmentalising my life to cope with the various stressors.



When I'm at Uni, the PhD is my world and although I am still secretary of the mature age student club, I can no longer it give my energy. I'm done with it, just going through the motions. I cannot see the point of it anymore, and it is certainly not enhancing my university experience. It is nothing like how I thought it would be - this Uni experience. I had hoped for some sort of community, I certainly gave all I had to build a community, but in the end, it wasn't enough. I wasn't enough. So, now when I go to Uni it's all about the PhD, and despite my best efforts I find myself feeling as isolated as I ever did doing my masters degrees by correspondence.

That is not saying this can't change. I'm still hopeful it will, but I may have cast my energies in the wrong direction, is all. I'll wait and see what the future brings, but for now I'll put mo…

The House Sold...

I started this blog post on Monday, but didn't get far before being called away. That's probably a good thing as it saves me posting about the sale of the house twice.

You see on Monday I was going to tell you the house sold for over 100K above asking price, which was an excellent outcome for the owners. They thanked us with flowers and chocolates, which was lovely.

We were told on Saturday that the new owners were investors who wanted to rent the place out for a year or two before developing it in 3-5 years time, and that we would be given first refusal on renting the property.

That all sounded pretty good to us, getting to stay in the house for a couple of more years was exactly what we were hoping for.

On Monday night, the Grumpy Old Man told his mum, and when he made it all sound set in stone, I felt very uneasy about taking so much for granted and warned him things might not turn out exactly as we'd been told on Saturday. He thought I was being overly pessimistic.

Yes…

Ask How...

The older boys' monthly GPA came out yesterday. While Erik's improved on the last report before the holidays, Lukas' didn't. To be clear, Erik improved in one subject, which brought his average GPA up. Lukas dropped in a number of subjects, which took his down.

One of the most interesting changes was to their maths results. Each boy has now attended three maths tutorials (missing last week's because the school concert was on that day). Erik has seen an improvement in his maths outcomes - generally speaking in class participation (he says this is because he has been helping other students). Where as Lukas has seen a rather dramatic drop in his maths GPA - a whole point!

So, we had a talk about these results last night, and what came to light with the comments from the school and through talking to the boys, is that they lack initiative. They do exactly what is asked of them, but no more. They don't offer to answer questions in class, and if they don't have o…

Denial...

The house will be auctioned this coming weekend, and my colloquium papers are due in four and a half weeks. The colloquia is in six and a half week. The Federal budget came out yesterday and as an unemployed, student, mother, living with a disability, on a pension, who sometimes requires medical assessment and medications, I'm a seven times loser.

I am trying to gain employment; that is what this degree is about. I am desperately hoping that once I've passed my colloquia seminar, I'll be offered tutoring work which will provide me with the essential teaching experience I lack amongst all my qualification.

The Government does not want to make it easy for me, or people in my situation to become more skilled and more employable though. As of next January, there will be no more pensioner education supplement (which I don't get but used to get and it helped me get my first masters), there will be no more education entry payment (which I also don't get, but did get once,…

Fortnightly marathons...

I just finished another fortnightly marathon. That's what I'm calling these mini-deadlines for my PhD supervisor. I get to meet with her every two weeks or so, and in between she gives me work to do and hand in to her before the next meeting. For the first few months, these marathons were easy-peasy. In fact, I sort of wondered what other PhD students were complaining about, I seemed to be managing to work through it all quite easy. The last couple of months have brought a renewed understanding of why doing a PhD is a full time job!

I enjoy it, I really do, but some days when I go downstairs to meet the Grumpy Old Man in the carpark, I feel like I couldn't possibly get any more information inside my brain. These past few months I've been doing a crash course in identity theory and the Icelandic sagas. Every time I open a new article I feel as if I fall through the looking glass into a new topsy-turvy world of jargon. Then after a few days immersed in that world, I sta…