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The time has come to hand in another paper. I have just over a month to submit, and of course, I presented the paper (the outline of it, in any case) back in November, but with work and just daily life, finding time to research and write can be a challenge.

I wouldn't have it any other way, though.

I have so many goals at the moment, with publishing being just one.

Today, I have a meeting with my management team. I hate these meetings. I know one of the goals of the organisation at the moment is to reduce full time hours. I've seen people around me have their work week reduced by a day, and I'm always wary of the same thing happening to me. The loss of income would be one thing, but not the biggest thing - we're quite comfortable. The time I'm able to be present for the projects I'm managing at the moment is something I do not want to see compromised. At the moment, being able to attend meetings and appointments whenever they happen during the week is very useful. Losing a day (and it would be a regular day), puts at risk me being able to be flexible about these things. With at least one of my projects, this could be devastating. I'm working with a culturally sensitive group, and being able to fit in with their schedule is key to collaboration. Being able to attend clinics is very important for building trust. It's concerning.

I am constantly on the lookout for things I can do if I was to lose days in my work week. I expect this is the same for everyone who works. I need to keep my options open. This is how organisations and businesses lose valuable employees - and I consider myself a very valuable employee to this organisation, certainly I've opened doors to the community that just weren't being targeted in the past. Having some sort of career means having experience, and that means working as much as possible.

It's just how things work.


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